She wrote from Riga, Latvia.
Not a “normal tired.” Not a “little anxious.”
Her message felt like a nervous system that had been running on emergency mode for years — and now even the emergency mode was collapsing.
She told me:
- Nervous system, digestion, teeth, immunity — everything getting worse.
- Medication for 4 years, and a new doctor saying it may have been overdosage.
- No energy to even go for a walk. She leaves the flat only for doctors.
- Nine years of illness, disability pension spent trying natural healing routes.
- A son with bed wetting and possible trauma from grandma’s abusive behavior.
- A home environment full of shouting, arguing, dependence, emotional pressure.
- And the biggest question under everything:
“If I heal… what will I do for a living?”
This wasn’t one problem.
This was a whole system.
And in cases like this, I don’t start with motivation. I don’t start with philosophy.
I start with one thing: stabilize the nervous system first.
Because when the nervous system is unstable, everything becomes harder — digestion, sleep, fear, even hope.
The Night She Lost Control
Before the session, she wrote:
- 3 hours sleep.
- Sore throat. Trembling.
- Anti-Parkinson’s medication to stop tremors.
- Then the worst episodes: toes curling like a fist, one leg feeling shorter, intense spasms, sometimes loss of control over pooping/peeing.
- Forced to take benzodiaze*pines.
- Underweight, exhausted, scared, and surrounded by people who couldn’t hold her in a safe space.
And she said something important:
“I feel I’m just losing control of my body.”
When someone is in that state, you don’t “fix life.”
You bring them back to the simplest survival truth:
Breath. Rest. Repair.
What I Told Her First
I told her plainly:
You are alive.
And I will keep you alive.
And I will guide you step by step.
I could feel that her system didn’t need more thinking.
It needed regulation.
So I didn’t overload her with ten techniques. I gave her a narrow path.
And I said it in my own way — strong, direct, not sugar-coated — because this was a critical case.
The Session: I Took Her Into the Breath
I asked her to look into the camera.
Right hand. Left hand.
Then I guided her into a posture that reduces mental noise:
- Hands placed like support near the forehead
- Neck slightly tilted back (not rigid, not straight)
- Attention only on the incoming and outgoing breath
I kept repeating the same focus:
Breath. Exhalation. Let go of fear.
When she reported throbbing and ribcage/solar plexus activity, I didn’t dramatize it. I told her:
It’s life energy.
Solar plexus activity.
Kundalini is responding.
Then I said the image that came naturally to me:
“It’s like I am in the helicopter. I have thrown the rope and you have lifted it.”
Meaning: you took the signal. Now I pull you up.
The Research Participant Path
She had one strength: her English and her ability to write.
So I offered her a different exchange:
Not pressure. Not guilt. Not fantasy.
Structure.
I told her:
- “Are you ready to be my research participant?”
- “I will keep money aside.”
- “Your role is to give feedback in writing in a Google Doc.”
- “This will become like a research paper.”
- “I will work with you for 30 days, regularly.”
- “You implement, you report, I guide.”
And I told her something that might sound simple — but it was the root:
“You are not able to contribute to life. That is why you are deteriorating day by day.”
This wasn’t blame.
This was diagnosis: her system had lost purpose-energy and safety-energy.
So we rebuild from the bottom.
The Two Core Techniques I Gave Her
1) Long Exhale + External Breath Hold (External Kumbhak)
I taught it in the most basic way:
- Inhale slowly through the nose (no force)
- Exhale fully through the mouth, long and complete
- When the belly is fully deflated, hold the breath by pinching the nose
- Start with 1–3 seconds, build slowly toward 3–5 seconds as capacity allows
- Eyes closed during the rounds, no overthinking
Her aunt could help by doing the pinch/hold part if her hands cramped.
And after the rounds, I guided her into a very specific state:
“Look at your third eye from inside and you will see a blank space… a simple joy of being alive… a feeling of calmness… this is the state of nothingness… your brain has received oxygen.”
I wasn’t trying to impress her.
I was trying to give her nervous system a direct experience of safety.
2) Kund Breathing with Belly Movement
Then I taught the second technique:
- Lying down
- Belly moving up and down gently (no strain)
- If her aunt is present: one hand on the belly (above navel level), pressing lightly during exhalation with healing intention
- 30 minutes, 4 times a day minimum
- Aunt can do 1 session if she comes, the rest she does alone
This is not about “doing hard.”
This is about doing consistent.
The Written Protocol I Gave After
After the session I wrote:
- External Kumbhak: 100 times/day
(10 counts every hour × 10 times/day) - Kund Breathing: 30 minutes × 4 times/day
(Before sleep, after waking, and two times in the day)
And I told her to report in writing — not to keep scattering energy in chat.
The Real Enemy Was Not Just Symptoms
After the session, she wrote again:
- Left side worse
- Mother shouting
- Accusations
- Body twisting “like a screw” from left foot to right hand
- Aunt looking drained too
- Hope rising one day, crushed the next day
This is what many people don’t understand:
When the body is in trauma physiology, one unsafe interaction can undo hours of regulation.
That’s why I told her:
Withdraw attention from your parents.
Not because parents are “bad.”
Because in her condition, attention is life-force.
And her life-force was already running on 1%.
A Necessary Safety Line About Medication
This is important, and I’ll say it clearly:
If you are on prescribed medication, never stop suddenly or throw anything away without a licensed doctor supervising the taper — especially with nervous-system drugs and benzo-type medications. Sudden changes can be dangerous.
My work here is nervous system stabilization and energetic training, so the body becomes capable of healing and functioning again — and then, if medication reduction is appropriate, it must be done safely and medically.
What This Session Was Really About
This session was not “a miracle talk.”
It was a reset.
- When her body was trembling, we didn’t argue with it. We regulated it.
- When her mind was collapsing, we didn’t feed it information. We fed it oxygen and exhalation.
- When life felt too big, we narrowed the focus to breath + rest + reporting.
- When her environment was chaotic, we trained her to stop giving her remaining attention to chaos.
And then she said something that shows the shift:
“Learning conscious breathing is what I need to be able to concentrate on my own being, not losing my boundaries.”
That is the beginning.
Not the end.
The beginning.
Because when breathing becomes stable, the nervous system stops screaming.
And when the nervous system stops screaming, digestion can recover, sleep can return, energy can rise, and decisions become possible again.
That is how I work.
One breath at a time — until life comes back.
