This Discourse is from the session with an advanced student in the Phoenix Project.
You are consciousness at the center, and you perceive everything. The power of perceiving, the quality of perceiving, the quality of witnessing is only with the consciousness—that is, the subject. Nothing else has the power to perceive. Our brain is like a processor; it processes whatever consciousness wants it to do. But without the consciousness, even the brain is not functional.
In your deep sleep state, there is a sense of awareness that you are sleeping. Who is sleeping? Who is aware of the state of sleeping? When we say, I want to sleep, is this the ego that wants to sleep, or is it the pure consciousness that wants to sleep, or let the body go in that state?
Yes. You can express from the state of consciousness what you feel. Everything that happens in your field of awareness—you are aware. Why? You are aware because you are the perceiver of everything. All the information is processed by the brain in the physical world. But before that, the energetic dimension happens much before the brain perceives.
A knowing comes, your intuition comes—that intuition is not about what is happening in the present. The intuition is some vibrational frequency reaching you from a distance, and that energy is perceived by you in the present as if it has already happened. Look at some intuition that you feel. For example, an intuition comes that you are going on a travel, traveling to a new place.
You will feel that as if you are already enjoying that state, even though you have never experienced it before. For example, you are going to the Amazon jungle in South Africa. You have never been there in this birth, but if you are going to travel there in the near future, you feel that frequency of energy as if it is happening right now, and your brain perceives that, and then you feel the actual feeling of going to that place.
So you need to understand if you want yourself to go beyond the mind, to go beyond the ego, and to be established as pure consciousness, your attitude should be to practice what you are at the center all the time, in every activity. The moment you get up in the morning, the first thing that you should do is to know yourself—who you are.
First, start at the point of subject. When you are connecting to the subject, then the subject—who is the subject? Subject is consciousness. Subject is the driver. Subject is the one who will drive the car. If there is no driver, who is going to drive this vehicle called the body? So do not identify yourself as the name, as the role that you play.
He has the role x, y, z person. I am not naming you also because that creates identification, but x, y, z person, yes.
Your personas lead your life. You are watching because they have their patterns, the patterns, the tendencies. They are deep-rooted in your subconscious. They are deep-rooted in your mind. And you start your day like the same person who was before getting free, before becoming enlightened. What is the difference?
The moment you start observing the patterns in the form of thoughts, in the form of vibration, in the form of feelings, at times sensations and emotions, the moment you see, those vibrations get dissolved. Why does it happen? Because witnessing is not just pure witnessing. Witnessing is with energy of the center of the consciousness, of the sun. It is equivalent to the sun’s energy. When the Sun’s rays fall on the strongest bacteria, they die.
The quality of thoughts of the mind, in the mind of the ego, the feeling, sensation—these are vibrational frequencies, which are like virus and bacteria, denser energies. And the energy of consciousness is of higher quality. It is of the quality of the Sun. When the heat and light of the Sun fall on this lower, darker, and denser energies, they dissolve.
They just get transmuted into pure consciousness. The second thing is that when you start absorbing anything, witnessing anything, automatically reclaiming of energy happens. That reclaiming of energy itself is enlightenment. That happens very fast in my presence. When I give Shaktipat, your Kundalini moves, and that has happened. But what happens? The Maya, the negative energies, they are also there.
And that is why post-enlightenment sadhana is required to reclaim that energy again and again and again, till this period of post-enlightenment sadhana is over. When you are established in samadhi and then you become a power holder. Maybe later when you are like a rock at the center as consciousness, whatever happens—even if Maya comes, even if illusion comes, even if the tendencies regarded as vasanas come in your surrounding in any form—you do not give up.
This is the nature of your consciousness. You do not give up this center because center is Shiva. Centered consciousness is Shiva. Shiva is powerful. Shiva is the meditator. If you are a true Shiva, if you want that Shiva to be established in you, sadhana is prime. And that sadhana of what? Not meditation that is taught here and there, but meditating on yourself, meditating on consciousness, meditating on who you are.
If you do this for years—one year, two years, three or four years, five years—there should not be any desire to do anything in the world out there after enlightenment. Those who want to do something, they fail because again, they are not established as consciousness. They come back to the ego. They create the spiritual ego of being free, being enlightened.
And from that state, they start delivering mediocre results, and they fail miserably. And many have failed to be a true master. Nobody is a true master except only few. If you want to become a true master, the journey begins now. This is the journey. This is the beginning of the journey. First few months of enlightenment, you try to just understand what consciousness is, what energy is.
Where I am. But once you understand, you have understood completely. As a guru, I have taught you the real essence of consciousness and Kundalini. And now the new journey begins. And this journey is the journey of becoming the Phoenix, means what you are going through is burning of the ashes of the old self. Every time you burn, you find that some more parts are again getting emerged to be burnt again.
And this burning will keep on continuing until and unless your brain and nervous system understand this energy completely. And as you burn this energy, this old self, the new downloads happen. And the new download is of the intelligence of the universe that keeps on happening. You are consciousness, and the level of consciousness rises. Your Kundalini shoots up. Your energy channel purifies.
Kundalini’s work of purifying the energy channels is a lifelong process. You need to understand this Kundalini journey is never complete.
But it happened after 40 years. In your 70s—you are 67, now in your 70s—you feel that it is still continuing. Some work is done, and that is why you do not have that personality identification. You have dropped that because you have understood that as the essence of Kundalini. But it is a lifetime project.
Because your journey has already happened in your previous lives. You need to understand the sadhana of millions of lives accumulate together to rectify in the last life to be free. So all throughout your life, you have experienced the state of being a seeker or in the journey. You have never lived the true human life that happens in the lower chakras.
You have always been split into different worlds. Externally, you were burning your karmas by participating in life, by making mistakes, by rectifying those. But internally, your journey was going on towards your freedom.
So yes. You need to understand that all the journey that you have traveled in this birth, in 67 years of body’s age or in the mind, is actually the process of Kundalini. You are nobody. It is the evolution of the spirit. Kundalini is doing her task, making use of your body to be free.
And when you just take out your cover, just take out your skin and imagine yourself, how do you appear as a human being then? Actually, it is matter. Nobody can identify yourself with your name or this person, and this is what happens. The skeleton remains. The body is dissolved as matter, as energy again gets transmuted.
And when you understand this, the futility of all this while you are alive, then nobody can detach you from your consciousness.
Your consciousness remains intact. The only truth, even in the moment when your physical body is dying—the physical body does not die, actually—the spirit leaves the physical body. And when the spirit leaves the physical body, then the body is decayed. The spirit is Kundalini, the soul, the spirit, and that time also the consciousness, the intelligence of the consciousness is this feminine energy, and consciousness is the decision maker.
Consciousness is the one who is doing everything. So you need to understand if you observe yourself, witness yourself all the time, then you are always detached and there is no suffering. There is no pain. Suffering and pain are connected to the ego’s identification—with something, with the roles, with the materialistic possessions, with being a human, and everything that is in the materialistic world.
But when you keep watching and witnessing the ego, like the guest in the hotel who are coming and going—they are not here to stay—every time the guests change. Likewise, the shades of ego change every time, all the time. It is taking different shapes, different identifications, different formations. Another analogy is of the cloud. Clouds are taking different formations.
So mind, ego, memory—these are all taking different formations all the time. But you are the sky or the universe, which is consistent, which is there, which is that vast field of energy in which everything happens. The planets, the stars, everything is this vast field of universal energy, which is actually nothing. There is no end to it. Everything is just vacuum.
Close your eyes to feel that vacuum right now and be free.
And the center—you are nothing. First, focus your attention on your third eye and slowly move inside.
Discard everything that comes. First, it may come in the form of thoughts. Next, it may come in the form of feelings. It may come in the form of vigorous laziness, your desires, tendencies, patterns. Discard everything. Drop them. Let them go. Let the clouds move. Let the guests move. They are not here to stay. So let all of them go away.
Let all of them dissolve. You are not responsible for what the ego thinks. You are not responsible for how the mind is formed. Whose mind is it? It is actually a culmination of garbage of millions of years. And some of this birth, whatever information you have, your brain has come across, your body has come across—it has been collected in the mind as ego.
Whatever beliefs, conditioning…
You have captured from the surrounding has become your mind, your memory. And that keeps on playing like a tape recorder, playing on its own, playing like a cassette, playing on its own. And you just need to realize the truth now that I am the witness, pure subject at the center, which is actually nothing. And when you discard all of this energetically, you reach the state of pure consciousness, where you have been always, and you will establish yourself as that. Nothing to be achieved here at this point, nothing to be removed. No one can touch you.
No one can see you. No one can feel you—what you are. But you are the subject—you can touch, you can feel, you can see, you can smell, you can listen—by making use of the brain. And the brain makes use of the five senses. And that is how you perceive life. You experience life. If you do not experience life, there is nothing to be experienced.
Even the experiencer dissolves. The experiencer dissolves and goes into the black hole where there is nothing, where nothing happens. That is the state of nothingness. And that state of nothingness is the endpoint of the journey of Kundalini. From that point, no journey remains. After that, Kundalini keeps on cleansing your system on a daily basis so that it remains clean.
And then the cosmic downloads of energies happen in you. And if you are lucky, eligible, and doing your sadhana well, then maybe at a certain time of your life, you will get some intelligence, some intuitive powers, or some other powers—only and only if you are eligible. Till the time you are not eligible, the universe is not a fool. The universal downloads get downloaded in the form of cosmic electricity only in those who are responsible—as a power holder who promises that no desire, no vasana will ever be able to drift him, divert him from his purpose of being established as pure consciousness. Once liberated, always liberated, never to go back to the matrix.
Never to be allured by the Maya. Never to be lost in the game of illusion. So what remains is pure consciousness.
Whatever comes and goes, you remain established as consciousness. And when you are highly conscious, you are established as Shiva. And only when you are established as Shiva, you are powerful. Freedom is power. True freedom is the real power. One who is not free is not powerful. So all your sadhana, all your meditation, all your spiritual practices should be towards remaining free.
You should be lighter, you should be minimalist, you should not engage yourself in any actions which are not conscious. You should start living only conscious life. You should start doing your activity only which is raising your consciousness or strengthening your consciousness. Now a few moments of silence. Just keep your eyes closed. The voice of the guru will dissolve and what will remain is pure silence. And feel the energetic shift of nothingness, which is actually everything.
Now, close your eyes for 2 minutes and witness who is witnessing everything.
Now, open your eyes. I will explain. You are the spectator. The spectator? From where you are seeing the subject—the eyes, the perceiver—these are very big. And whatever you are looking at—the object—is very small, very tiny. And that is the shift that has happened. And this will expand. This will expand as you do more of this consciousness practice in daily life, as you start witnessing everything, every moment, witness everything.
And this will expand. And then a shift will come when you will realize that I am everything. I am this universe. And from there, the state of abundance will begin. Always. Everything is present, nothing to be achieved, nothing to be changed. For the ego, everything is bigger than the ego, and ego needs to reach that state.
But from the perspective of consciousness, there is nothing to be achieved or reached. Everything is already there because in the field of consciousness, it is like ocean, vast ocean, and the rest everything is drops of water in the ocean. So that shift you experienced right now, you became vast as the subject, as the observer of things, who is aware of everything and all the other objects became very small or negligible, or in fact invisible.
And then you can see only blank state. There is nothing.
This blank state is power. This blank state is freedom. If you remain in this blank state 24 by 7 by 365 days for the rest of your life, the journey is over. Nothing to be done. Whether you express something from this state which is useful to other people, or you choose not to do anything.
It doesn’t matter. The state is important. People forget this state and they start doing again the old things. But when you are integrated—if you are not integrated as pure consciousness and energy, your brain, nervous system, everything is integrated—and then you operate from this state, then doing anything is meaningful. But if you are not integrated in this state, then doing anything is creating ego again, going back to the matrix.
Enjoy the state.
That nothingness is actually everything. That is fullness. It is all-encompassing. If you look from the perspective of energy, suppose you go in an open field—at one point, that is pure consciousness, witness—nothing remains. It is vast field of energy in the open sky. Only vast field of energy. There is nothing, no object. Everything becomes oneness, and that is the state of nothingness.
But at one point, you realize when you come back to the earthly state, you feel that everything, everything is in me. Everything is me. Each and every object is formed from me—the green grass, the sky, the stars, the moon, the plants, everything, human beings, animals—everything is me. And that is the state of fullness. So both are correct.
You are everywhere. You are everything. At the same time, you are nowhere and you are nothing. There is not a single point of localization for the consciousness. When you establish yourself beyond this state—right now, you are feeling fullness—as you meditate more and more on this state, a point will come. That is the point of black hole.
Right now you are in the white hole where you can see matter. A time will come, all matter will be dissolved into pure energy. If you know the concept of colors, when seven colors are mixed, they form white light. So right now, you are in white light. You are in white light. You are in crown chakra. Spiritually awake means you are enlightened.
You have not gone to the extent of it. When your energy will move towards each chakra, a point will come—you will deflect all the lights, and when you deflect all the light, the black color that we see is not because of mixing of colors. That black color is because that black color deflects all the lights, and there is darkness.
When there is no light, there is black.
So even the state of enlightenment will dissolve. The state of the experiencer will dissolve. It is like the dancer is dancing—the dancer is present, the dance is present, the act of dance is present. A time comes when everything dissolves. Neither the dancer remains nor the dance remains. Only pure energy remains, which is of a different quality.
At one point, you cannot even see the dance. You cannot even see the dancer. You cannot distinguish between the dancer and the dance—means both of them dissolve. What you enjoy is pure energy, and that pure energy is black. That pure energy is nothing.
You feel that time does not exist. The spatial awareness goes away. Everything—the awareness about time, distance, space—everything goes away during that time. That is the state of nothingness. And that is the highest state. When you are established in this state, a separation will come from everything. Even the act of witnessing will not happen.
Act of witnessing is a separate act, but a state will come—even the witness will not remain. Everything will become 2D. The 3D experience of life will be removed, and the 2D will suddenly become dark. Nothing. You are looking at objects, but you are not. Your attention is not going, so your brain is not able to form the image of the object.
And that is why you will not be able to see objects. You will be in the crowd full of people and everything—every object, every kind of object—but your attention will be 100% established in the center. And since the attention is not going, your brain is not able to form images, and you are not able to see anything.
So that is the highest state where I am. Everything happens, but this state is not dissolved due to the sadhana, due to the deep sadhana—not forgetting yourself as pure consciousness, not forgetting what power you have. This is the respect towards power. So with my grace, with my blessings, I give you the highest blessing for your sadhana.
Whether you do externally anything or not does not matter, but your sadhana should expand.
Students like you are rare to find. And so, never become. Don’t take pride—that energy of pride that comes with becoming something which is very rare. Only your humility, your humbleness, will keep you grounded. And there is a lot to learn. You know nothing for the Phoenix Project. My only suggestion to you is—again, come with a blank slate.
You know nothing. Unlearn everything that you know, and there will be real work. I will transform you into a man who is much more powerful. That will be the real work. And from this state, whatever action you take, it will be brilliant.
So this was one of the most powerful sessions to one of my enlightened students. I recorded this session for a bigger purpose. And those who are the real seekers will get access to this energy. Or you can directly take my consulting and book the projects when you need it, if you are eligible.
Have a great day.
