Prologue
Your guru is not the parking lot for your ego.
If you feel that you will park yourself and feed on the attention of the guru throughout your Kundalini awakening journey, spiritual awakening journey—by feeding on the attention of the guru throughout—then you are highly mistaken about the guru. The guru is here to transform you. The guru is here to process your journey toward freedom by working on your total metamorphosis, transforming you from larva to butterfly.
But you, the ego who is a larva now, do not want to become the butterfly.
The Illusion of the Ego
In fact, you are not the larva at all. You are not even the egg. You are some illusionary character created in the imaginary world that thinks something of himself or herself. You have created an imaginary character who is playing different roles, who is performing different functions, who is an achiever in some work or a loser, failure in some work—and all this that you have created as an identity is you. And that ego has the problem of ADHD. ADHD means you are suffering from attention-deficit hyperactivity syndrome. You all the time need the attention of other people to feed and to be alive.
The ego is like a stagnant energy in your energy field that has been created because of your concentration of energy in creating the ego throughout your life.
Spiritual Shopping and the “Sacred” Garbage Heap
Once you got the understanding that you are going through Kundalini awakening or spiritual awakening, you started collecting all kinds of information, all kinds of knowledge from everywhere in the world in the form of spiritual seeking. You read about every enlightened person throughout history, in different civilizations. You know about the enlightenment of Buddha. You know about the enlightenment of Mahavira. You know about the enlightenment of Osho. You know Krishna consciousness. You know about Jesus. You know about Guru Nanak. You know about Vivekananda, Ramakrishna. You know about Lhasa. You know about Zen masters. You know about many enlightened souls who lived in different eras. And you have read all the scriptures—where you know “I am not the doer, I am not this, I am not that.”
And all this mental masturbation you have done through your egoic identification of being a spiritual person, or a spiritual ego you have developed separately. You think that you are an intellectual person who has invested so much in gaining and reading spiritual scriptures. You have that heightened sense of being someone who is above the crowd, who is above the normal people operating in the world.
All garbage, all bullshit, all nonsense you have collected. And that is the reason for your failure. Till now you are not yet free, and you will never be free if you keep collecting all this garbage.
Parking Your Scrap Vehicle in the Guru’s Field
And then you come to the guru. You want to test your garbage of knowledge by testing the guru. And you want to park yourself in the guru’s energy field like you are a scrap vehicle. And you have parked yourself in the guru’s energy field. The guru’s energy field, filled with high-power divine energy, is not for your scrap vehicle.
Go and get lost. Sell your scrap vehicle in the stock market. Sell all your knowledge in the scrap market.
The guru has become guru with her sadhana. The guru has become guru with the discarding of all the garbage. I have never collected the garbage, and whatever garbage I was collecting in the name of seeking throughout my spiritual journey, I have verified with my true intelligence. I have listened to my inner GPS. I have asked my brain, my consciousness.
What the Guru Is—and Is Not
You don’t know anything about the guru. You feel that the guru is a normal human being. The guru is not. The guru is the frequency. The guru is the charge. The guru is the power. The guru is the intelligence of the universe that is flowing through me. My body, mind, and energy radiate with that guru frequency through which you are transformed.
But you feel that you can park yourself. You can definitely park yourself if you are suffering and your soul is ready to be free and your ego is ready to die—but you cannot waste the guru’s powerful energy by parking your ego here. There is no one to entertain you here. I am extremely practical and powerful to kill you.
Make sure that your intentions are extremely pure when you approach the guru, or else work on your purification. You are not an eligible student until and unless you have purified yourself.
No guru, no master ever, has freed any ego. The true master has always transformed the world. There is no ego-charisma activity going on here. There is no mutual exchange. There is no exchange at all. The guru is the giver and you are the receiver. This is the only equation between the guru and the student. The guru gives and the student receives. The student, the disciple, cannot give anything to the guru.
Forget about all your knowledge. You cannot even doubt or question the guru. Your soul knows who the real guru is. If the guru is working on your ego, mind, memory, and all the remnants of your past lives, that guru is extremely powerful—who can transform you with powerful energy.
Trust Like a Child
At that time you just need to receive it. You cannot doubt or have trust issues. You cannot remain aware of what the guru is doing to you. The child, when it is taking birth in the womb, does not know how the mother is giving birth to the child, how the mother is nourishing her. The child has no say in the entire process of taking birth, and even after birth, the child has no say until the child grows into a mature adult.
There is no say in how the parents are bringing the child up. Such trust is required on the part of the child toward the parents who give birth to the child, who create the upbringing to transform the child into a matured, independent adult. When the child is thrown—when the baby is thrown in the air—the baby laughs because of the trust in the parent, in the father, in the mother, that they will catch and hold the child. That is blind trust in the father, in the parent—that the father will hold the child in his lap once it falls—so it lives in the air.
What parents must have done that in your infancy? Yes, you must have done that to your children if you have ever become a father or a mother. That kind of trust is required for the guru. Even if the guru says to jump off the cliff, you should be ready to jump. And if you don’t do that, then you are not the student. When the guru says, “Jump from the cliff,” and you are ready to jump from the cliff, you go to the end of the cliff and you find that it is not a cliff at all—it was just my testing to see whether you are ready.
You have to unlearn everything that you have learned so far. Extreme commitment is required for you to become pure in the total journey of freedom.
Right Questions vs. Garbage Clarifications
Another analogy will make it clear to you if you are not understanding by now. You go to the university, and you ask the professor to clarify your doubts. It is valid. You can ask the guru the right questions that are coming from the real journey, from the real transformation that you are going through. You may be ignorant—you are ignorant—and you can ask questions from that space.
But you cannot go to the professor and ask him to clarify something that you have read from somewhere else—random social media. What will the professor do then? He will tell you, “Go out of my university.” The same way I will tell you: go and park yourself at the place from where you have collected the garbage. Go to the dump yard and go and dump yourself—your brain, your mind, your ego—there.
The guru will not clarify your garbage-collection activity. The real questions come from the one who is really suffering.
Face the Fire of Transformation
You have not suffered enough. You have never been into any kind of practical actions. You are running away from the very fact that you are unable to take the actions that need to be done. You have to take practical actions in your life. You cannot run away from your problems like a coward. You have to face every problem. You have to face the struggle of transformation from a larva to a butterfly. You have to go through the process of childbirth.
You want to become free here and now, but you are not ready to do the sadhanas—the spiritual practices—that the guru teaches. You are not ready to die. You are not ready to transform. You are not ready to give up whatever garbage you have collected so far. All your data in the body, in the form of energy, is wasted in the collection and management of this garbage. You keep on collecting and wasting your valuable resources in collecting this garbage. You read from one source, then you go to another source. You collect some, you get doubts. Your mind is created. The thoughts of those readings go inside you. And from source to source you are collecting information—from people who are not free yet, from teachers who are not enlightened, from people who are not siddha, who are not guru, who themselves are going through a process of illusion. They are themselves disillusioned by so much information.
It is like social gossiping is happening. Someone says something, the other person says something, the next person comes. This is the way social media interaction happens, and you are a part of that interaction—commenting on different platforms. There is no right question asked by a right seeker. And when someone who is a right seeker, who is searching something, asks a question to someone whom he feels is knowing or is a knowledgeable person, then the other persons in the group bully that person because the very existence of a true seeker threatens the trollers and the commentators who are there for time-pass or for entertainment, who are there for bullying each other, who feed on each other’s energy, who themselves are having lots of brain and health-related issues—those who themselves have schizophrenic and bipolar kind of conditions. Brain and mental health issues are the primary problems, and that is why they are here wasting their life. And you are part of this garbage collection and part of the slum dwellers.
What kind of energy do you get from such interactions?
One Hundred Days of Discipline
If you would have followed the advice of the guru for 100 days, I would have freed you by now. But you do not want to commit—not because you do not trust the guru; you do not trust yourself. You do not have confidence in yourself to change and transform.
For one day—24 hours—you cannot commit to something, to be disciplined, to increase your willpower, because you have lost everything, and your ego is running away from this fact.
Addiction to Information, Paralysis of Action
Look at your journey so far. You are highly addicted. You are still addicted to spiritual knowledge. You are highly addicted to gathering and reading more about people, watching videos, reading scriptures. When one piece of information is not able to release happy hormones in you, you go to another piece of information—and this is how you keep collecting information. You are addicted to information collection. You read news. You are engaged in the addiction of collecting news, information about all the gurus in the world, all the people in the world who are getting enlightened or going through spiritual awakening.
What will you do with the spiritual awakening of other people?
You have to disconnect from the environment which has contributed to the creation of your ego if you really have to take the guidance of the true guru, if you really want to transform your life into something extraordinary and you are fed up with the old way of living, in which nothing happens. It is a passive life. It is a life of mental masturbation.
It is like doing sexuality—everything happening in the imaginary world, nothing happening in real. There is no free girl in real life. There is no actual sex happening in real life. Everything is happening in your imagination. You are fucking the girl in the imaginary world. You are having all the lovemaking in the imaginary world. There is no real action in real life. You do not find a girl and you do not have the courage to approach a girl for anything—not even for a cup of coffee you can ask a girl with courage—because you have lost your masculinity. Ninety-nine percent of the spiritual seekers who are men, including you, are wasting their life gathering information and living a passive life.
You cannot move your ass when it comes to physical actions. All your orders in the body are lost. You keep getting addicted to different kinds of addictions, including alcohol, overeating, eating meat and other stale food. You hide in the name of spiritual downloads. You say that so much of spiritual download is difficult to handle, and that is why you are addicted—drugs, cannabis, and so many things, smoking, everything that is available in the name of addiction. You get the information of that source, and you apprehend because in the groups, in the information centers from which you collected the garbage, you get a lot of information from people who are in the social media groups. There is no real interaction with real people in real life through which you will learn actual practicality.
There is not a single masculine man in your life from whom you would be able to learn what masculinity really means in reality. All are donkeys and all are sheep around. There is not a real lion with whom you interact and exchange your energy. You are an average of the five people you spend your life with. If you are spending your life with five donkeys, you become a donkey. On the other hand, if you spend your valuable time with five lions, you will become a lion one day.
What a Guru Does
The guru is a one-man industry or one army. It is the university of the universe because the guru is the intelligence of the universe. I am the intelligence of the universe. You ask a question from a real-seeking perspective—you will get the right answer, then you will be free. I dissolve all of your questions. I dissolve you. I dissolve the mind that is existing on illusionary information and denser energies.
I have the power to transmute your demonic and lower energies—the energy vampires in you—into the powerful energy of consciousness. And that is possible through the practices, through the life that I teach you to live. You are not a good student because you cannot follow what the guru says. You don’t want to surrender. You do not want to receive.
You have that male ego: “But how could I surrender in front of a guru who is in female form?” That is why the universe has created me as the guru—so that your pride grinds to the earth level.
Keep your shoes and ego outside when you reach the guru—not only me. Any guru in the world cannot ever free you if you are going to the guru with some ego.
The guru who takes anything from you is not a true guru. If the guru is taking your shit, then the guru is not the real guru. He is a fake guru. And you will know the difference between a true guru and a fake guru when you go to hundreds of such gurus and waste your time, money, energy, and life in such investments you make. It will become a dud investment.
From Ice to Vapor
You come to me in the form of ice, dense, filled with all kinds of shit, garbage—and with my powers, with the transformation process, I transform you into vapor—lighter, invisible, into pure energy—and you experience that also. But even after experiencing, you are sticking to your ego. That is the obstacle.
Some of you got enlightened through me, through my powerful energy transformation—but immediately the ego came from the back door: “How is it possible?” You wanted to move Kundalini. You wanted to transform Kundalini. You wanted to become enlightened by doing something—and you failed. But you came to me, and with my power I burned your ego, I transformed. It happens because I am that powerful. And when it happened only in a few hours, in a few moments, the ego came from the back door to say, “How is it possible? The same which was not possible for me for years and decades—how is it possible through this guru in such a short time?”
The answer is: the guru is here to kill the ego. That is why I am born. That is why my thought is—what is why I am here with all the powers. My powers work in real time to dissolve your ego. And to reach that state by yourself is not possible for you in millions of years.
Sadhana After Freedom
The sadhanas that I have done for millions of years have made me powerful. For you to remain free, you have to do your sadhana, which I teach. Most of my students are ego-free and they are extremely powerful after enlightenment because they follow my advice. They have blind faith, blind trust in this guru’s power. If I tell them “Do nothing for one year,” they do nothing. They just chop wood and carry water. They just live life—and slowly, gradually, they become powerful. They trust life. They trust the advice of the guru. They trust what I say. And when they do that, they become transformed into a new version of themselves. They become butterfly. They become an eagle. They become a lion. They become a phoenix who has worked on burning himself.
There is no doing involved after freedom—only sadhana, practices that I teach, are required. If you are ready for all this work on yourself, you have to drop your ego and come to the guru to rescue you, to free you. Don’t commit your last energy. Do not commit your lower energy. I have the clairvoyant reading power to read you, to see through you, and I know what I can do with my powers.
The Record Keeper: Consequences of Lower Intent
If you have come with wrong intentions, you need to be extremely pure—otherwise the Kundalini in you will punish you. She is the record keeper and the watchman of your energy field. Each time you think something from lower energies, it gets registered in Kundalini. And then she punishes you because you have created wrong karma—creating a wrong pot from your lower energy vampires in your system—which radiated extremely low energy of the demonic world, the negative world, the low vibrational frequency. And Kundalini registers them, and it creates karma, and then Kundalini does the dharma of punishing you. Yes, your ego will be constricted. You will have all the constriction in the body, mind, and spirit, and you will face the consequences. And it is a real case with students: they get panic attacks when they try to think anything wrong; their ego is shattered; Kundalini punishes by creating havoc in their system.
Eligibility, Purity, and the Gaze
This discourse should be an eye-opener for your soul, which is seeking freedom. The ego is not seeking freedom. The ego is trying to keep you in the jail, and you will never be free if you are still feeding your ego.
So come to the guru surrendered—with extreme trust, extreme empty vessel. Unlearn everything before you come to the guru. Then only will the guru be able to transmute your energies into higher consciousness, higher power. Once your soul, your spirit, your Kundalini becomes free, have the fear of facing the guru. If you cannot look into the eyes of the guru, you are not a trustworthy person. This means you are in your mind, you are in your ego. If your soul is pure, you will approach the guru and look into the eyes. You will have the guts to look straight and not blink and look here and there.
There are so many dimensions of your eligibility.
Final Admonition
So the guru is not your parking lot for your ego. Keep it outside the door and work on yourself. Work on yourself for years, and when you are ready—purified—at that time maybe the guru will be available for you, or some other guru will come.
All right. Have a great day.
