Kundalini and Ego Punishment: Wade’s Near-Death Warning

Background

This is the story of an emergency Kundalini case that arrived at my doorstep in the middle of the night. A 78-year-old grandmother, Christina, wrote to me in complete panic from Canada. Her grandson Wade, Age 33, had taken my session in the past and then misbehaved with me in a later interaction in India. After that, his Kundalini and nervous system went out of control. For 30 days his sympathetic nervous system kept dumping adrenaline until his body collapsed. He returned home almost in a near-death, bedridden state.

Doctors could not understand what was happening. Christina was exhausted, caring for a dying husband with ALS and now a grandson whose nervous system and Ojas, the life-force had collapsed. In this nightmare, Wade told her: “Sanju is the only one who can save my life.” This is my first-person account as Guru Sanju of that emergency call, my diagnosis, and the deeper truth about Kundalini, ego, and surrender.

Emergency Message from a Grandmother

It was the middle of the night for me when Christina first contacted my team.

She wrote that it was 5:13 a.m. where she was, and she wanted to be sure we would book the session before time ran out. She gave me Wade’s full name, date of birth, and location: Hanover, Ontario, Canada. Then she poured her heart out.

She told me she was going back to sleep and would message me when she woke up, thanking me for helping him, saying it had been a terrible time and that she was very tired from traveling abroad to retrieve him.

Then more truth came out. In the last three weeks she had slept around two hours. Her husband is dying of ALS, and now she has two sick people to take care of. She wrote, “It’s a nightmare.”

She explained Wade’s history:

• He has been sick his whole life.
• He works hard to enjoy just a few moments of life, but something always sends him back to zero.
• This was his hardest setback. He had worked very hard to build a good nervous system, but he lost a lot of progress.
• Now his energy is at zero and many old symptoms have returned.

She said she would sleep and message me when she awoke, and that she would watch the video I had sent her and then rest.

Later she updated me again: they were at the hospital, her husband was struggling with his breathing machine, and Wade “just sweats constantly in his sleep and cannot stand from dizziness.”

Then came the core diagnosis from her side:

Wade’s body was going through an extreme adrenaline crash. His sympathetic nervous system had somehow got stuck on, with repeated adrenaline dumps for 30 days straight. By the end he could not move. His body was now recalibrating—he could not walk, was very sick, sweating and shivering with chills.

In India, he had felt that if he did not surrender to this “energy thing,” it was his last chance. Now his body was in a turbulent shutdown, trying to collapse and rest.

She apologized for bringing me into all this, saying Wade believes I am the only one who can diagnose and save his life. She asked if I were free for a short call before going to the hospital, so he could listen to what I had to say and explain the technical aspects of what happened.

And she also sent me a formal email:

Her grandson had a good session with me last year. This year he was very frightened and things did not go well. He was now very sick and might die. She wrote that his nervous system was damaged in India, he had complete Ojas collapse, and doctors did not know what was happening. Wade told her I am the only one who can save his life and apologized for his last experience with me. She said, “We will pay double, he is completely bedridden… I am 78 years old and don’t understand this. Can you please help? We will do anything.”

This is the intensity with which this case arrived.

First Contact: My Promise and Presence

Before the session, my team and I responded from a place of complete commitment.

I told her:

• “Let me know when you wake up. I will conduct the session at any time based on your time zone, if that’s possible for me.”
• “Don’t worry at all. I will save him.”
• “He is still alive to learn some life lessons, and that’s the message from the universe that brought you and him to me.”

I sent her my Sanju Frequency- The New Life Frequency movie and told her to watch it within 24 hours so she could get both sleep and strength to face her reality with boldness.

I told her I would guide her on how best she could help save both her husband and Wade, and that she would join Wade in sessions to help him do what is required. I assured her I would adjust my nighttime schedule because of the severity of their condition, and I guided her to relax, keep inhaling and exhaling continuously, and go to sleep.

For Wade, I sent a very clear instruction:

“Tell him that I will save him and he should keep breathing through his nose no matter what he goes through.”

Then I called.

The Call: Speaking to Christina and Wade

When the video starts, I am just about to sleep. I pick up the call anyway.

I greet Christina:

“Hello, Christina. How are you?”

She explains that Wade has just started responding. I ask, “Can I talk to Wade? Can he be here?”

Slowly he comes on. He is weak, frightened, and his nervous system is at its edge.

I listen to what he has gone through. I let him speak, and I confirm what he is saying. Inside, I already know this is a full-blown sympathetic overdrive and adrenaline crash layered on top of unhealed neurosis, schizophrenia patterns, and Kundalini activation without surrender.

Then I begin.

My Diagnosis: The Solution Lies in Breathing

I tell Wade directly:

“The solution is in breathing. The solution lies in breathing.”

On his own, he is not able to do anything—and I know he will not be able to, because his brain and nervous system are in chaos.

So I explain:

“What you will do in my presence is breathwork. I will be working on your vagus nerve. I will take you into activating your vagus nerve through specific techniques, and in my presence you will be able to do it.”

I outline how his treatment with me really looks:

• He will book sessions—30 minutes or 60 minutes.
• In those sessions, he will do breathwork in my presence.
• Parasympathetic tone must be activated in him.
• The vagus nerve must be activated.
• This has to be continuous. If we take big gaps, the intensity of the sympathetic overdrive will increase again.

I tell him:

“You should get sleep. First of all, the solution lies in sleep.”

I explain that when he practices in my presence, his nervous system will learn. This is neuroplasticity. His brain’s neuroplasticity has been damaged.

His respiratory centers are damaged—not physically in the brain tissue, but in their patterning. His brain does not know how to breathe in a calmer, vagus-nerve-dominant, parasympathetic way.

“So what you are going to do,” I tell him, “is train your brain and nervous system, which have forgotten how to breathe in a calmer, rest-and-digest way.”

I also give him the practical freedom:

“If you want to go to the hospital, you can go. Get whatever treatment is required. But my solution is this: if you want my treatment, I will train your brain and nervous system. And you will need a strong presence of mind to go through this training.”

I Do Not “Work on Energy” – Energy Works on Its Own

I make something very clear to him:

“I do not work on energy. Energy works on its own.”

It is not about me radiating energy and pushing Shakti inside him. It is about him allowing his brain and nervous system to surrender to the process.

If he resists, he will go back into adrenaline rush, freeze mode, and sympathetic storms.

So I say:

“In this session, I am going to teach and train your brain. No need to worry. You are still alive. There is a possibility to stay alive.”

I ask him to start talking to his brain positively:

“Tell your brain: ‘I am alive. There is hope. There is possibility.’ Do not keep telling your brain, ‘I will die, I will die.’ That creates more fear in you.”

Clairvoyant Destiny Reading: Is Wade Going to Die?

At that point, his fear of death is very high. So I switch to my siddhi.

I ask him to show me his hands. I connect with his energy field and start reading his destiny clairvoyantly.

“This is a clairvoyant destiny reading,” I tell him.

My diagnosis is clear:

• His physical death is not there right now.
• He has a long life in his field.

I tell him plainly:

“You are not going to die. You have a long life. Now try to live life.”

I ask him to show me the other hand as well.

Then I add an important boundary:

“You just need to be polite and decent enough to take my consultation. That’s it. You are not going to die. This is just a phase. All your karmas and sufferings are getting burned. Now is the time of recovery.”

I interpret the deeper meaning for him:

“If you have met me now, it means your ego should die, and your soul should live. For that, you must maintain patience.”

Why I Don’t Give Shaktipat to Everyone

I explain to him that I am not going to give him Shaktipat or special energy transmission.

“I am not putting any extra energy because it costs a lot to give everything when you are not ready. For five years you may not be ready for Shaktipat. For your entire life you may not be ready for Shaktipat.

I will not give it, because it is extremely costly, very valuable, and meant for a bigger purpose.”

This is difficult for many people to accept. They want power, but they don’t want responsibility and surrender.

Forget Kundalini – Live a Normal Life First

Wade’s mind is still stuck on Kundalini, techniques, and esoteric ideas. I stop him there.

I tell him very directly:

“You are still stuck in one place. I am going to give you clarity. Forget about Kundalini and everything else. Just focus on living the life of a normal person. Kundalini will progress on its own.”

I instruct him:

• Stop trying to do anything with Kundalini.
• Stop masturbating and any behavior that drains his energy and life-urge.
• Focus on the life he has been given—his brain, nervous system, and physical body.
• Move away from obsessive esoteric focus.

“This is my only advice for now,” I say. “If you need anything else, I can teach you a few more minutes, but this clarity is the most important.”

Negative Ions, Grounding and Nature

Then I explain something crucial for his long-term path:

The intake of negative ions must increase.

He needs a lot of grounding work so the energy can progress smoothly.

I tell him:

“You cannot do this without me. In today’s time, no one in the world can progress in Kundalini journey without me. Whether you accept it or reject it, this is the truth.”

My role is to make the process smoother, not aggravated.

If he is in Canada, he has many natural resources and nature around him.

I will teach him techniques to ground his energy regularly so that Kundalini can progress in him in a smooth way.

Ego, Superego and Past-Life Karma

I diagnose the real problem beneath all this:

“Because of the ego, you have a superego. The ego in you wants to control Kundalini, and that is the fight.”

This is not only about his current personality.

I see that from previous births he has built a huge superego in himself, a massive resistance towards life.

Kundalini is now breaking that superego apart by putting him into an almost dead-like condition.

“She is showing you who the power is,” I tell him.

If he surrenders to this power, he will stop trying to abruptly control or regulate Kundalini.

I repeat:

“Don’t do anything with Kundalini. Just focus on your brain and nervous system and live a simple life. That is the solution from me.”

My Training Plan for Wade

In the last part of the call, I clearly outline what I offer:

This is not medication. This is training for the brain and nervous system to live a normal life, where Kundalini progresses quietly in the background without these kinds of dramatic events.

If he wants this, he must:

• Book 30-minute or 60-minute sessions.
• Allow me to first train his brain and nervous system.
• See the results.
• If he listens and follows, we can continue deeper work.

I remind him: his panic attacks and crises are also affecting other people.

“If you want to take responsibility for yourself,” I say, “book the sessions. You can do them any time.”

My Presence: I Am the Cosmic Kundalini

At one point Wade expresses concern that I “did something” to him in the last session.

I correct that perception:

“I do not do anything. I am extremely powerful. In every human being going through Kundalini awakening, the energy itself responds. What I can do is nothing. I just remain present.

I am talking to you, but the energy in you is responding to my power. This happens to everyone.”

Then I speak a truth that many resist but every soul recognizes:

“You are not knowing it. It is your fault. You are not understanding that I am the cosmic Kundalini. I am the cosmic power. I am the cosmic energy that works through mere presence.

Your soul knows it. I am the only person who can free you—but your ego does not surrender. That is the problem.”

So I tell him plainly:

“You have to go through suffering until you surrender. And do not drag your grandmother and others into your ego’s struggle.”

Then I end the call:

“Take care of yourself. Bye. See you.”

After the Call: Christina’s Message

After the session, Christina messages again:

“He is feeling intense tingling in his whole body. He is worried this energy is rising at a bad time. It’s very intense in his toes, spine and head. Just letting you know about it, sorry, and thanks for the call.”

I answer her calmly:

“Alright. Don’t worry. He will be well if he surrenders. Book his next session when he is ready. All the best.”

Because I know what is really happening:

Kundalini is responding to my presence and to his field. The tingling, the movement in toes, spine and head—these are signs of energy responding and reorganizing. The crucial factor now is not technique, but surrender and consistent training of the nervous system.

Why I Recorded This Case

“It is late night here. I was just about to sleep when this emergency arrived—someone on the verge of death, according to the family.”

I read out some of Christina’s message so the readers understand the intensity of his condition:

• Almost dead-like in India.
• Brought home to Canada by his 78-year-old grandmother.
• Years of illness, always going back to zero.
• Nervous system collapse after 30 days of adrenaline flood.
• Completely bedridden, unable to stand, sweating, chills, migraine, dizziness.

Then I explain the deeper pattern:

He took my consultation two years ago. He is suffering from neurosis, schizophrenia and many issues. He himself has said I am the only person in the world who can save him.

Yet two months ago, in a session with me in India, he misbehaved.

At the end of that session, his Kundalini started moving strongly—because I am who I am, and his energy knows it—even though his ego resisted.

This is the power I hold.

When You Misbehave with the Guru Field

I say this without decoration:

“If you do not recognize who I am, nobody in the world can help you. But if you know that I am the super power, the cosmic Kundalini, the Guru—whatever name you call me, Sanju or Guru or anything—it doesn’t matter, as long as your Kundalini knows I am the one who is going to save your life.”

Then you will be rescued.

Then you will be saved.

I have all the power, techniques, wisdom and intelligence to move and progress Kundalini in a smoother way. You do not have to go through what Wade is going through.

But he was extremely arrogant. His superego did not want to surrender.

Surrender is the only key to this solution.

I explain:

• Neurosis can be healed in my presence.
• But for severe cases, continuous sessions—at least 30 days—are required.
• I charge high for these exclusive emergency cases.
• My commitment is professional and sacred; I do not take this power for granted and neither should you.

And I also say a hard truth:

“I do not have to do anything to punish anyone. Kundalini punishes on its own. The universe takes care of the punishment.”

Wade misbehaved with me multiple times. For two years he kept wasting his life.

Then, when he suffered at the highest intensity, he came back.

This has happened with multiple patients: they misbehave with me, ignore my guidance, and then Kundalini breaks them apart in its own way.

Only Surrender Opens the Door

I tell my readers:

“I am available only for those who surrender.”

In Wade’s case, at the very end, he apologized for his mistakes. Only then did I become available to him at the peak of his crisis.

With my diagnosis, I saw clearly:

• He is not destined to die right now.
• He can survive through my method and guidance.

Otherwise, if he does not surrender and train his brain and nervous system, his mind and ego will destroy him.

Final Word: May Kundalini Be Merciful

This is not a story to scare you. It is a live demonstration of what happens when:

• Kundalini awakens in a person with deep neurosis and superego.
• They resist, misbehave with the Guru field, and try to control energy.
• They refuse to surrender until life crushes them.

I am not interested in convincing your ego. I am talking to your soul.

Read this energy with which I spoke to Wade and to his grandmother. Feel the power and seriousness behind my words.

May Kundalini be merciful to you.

If you surrender, listen, and act, Kundalini will guide you into a smoother awakening.

If you misbehave, mock, or judge the very power that is here to save you, I have no more words. Then Kundalini and the universe will take over your education in their own way.