Introduction
Kundalini pregnancy and your new birth. You are going through Kundalini awakening means you are going to take new birth, and the entire process of the Kundalini awakening journey is like a pregnancy period going on. And you will be taking birth only after this pregnancy is over. You do not know how many years it is going to take for you to take the new birth, because in case of a childbirth, it takes nine months because it is meant to be that way universally, naturally. And that is the birth of a new child of a human species. But when you are taking birth as a new being, as a new individual, as an integrated whole which is meant to be created by the universe, you don’t know how many years it is going to take for the Kundalini pregnancy period to be over. And when you will come out of the womb of Kundalini.
The Divine Mother and the Womb of Transformation
In the context of Kundalini as the mother, the divine mother that gives birth to you, it is exactly the same. You are taking birth from the womb of Kundalini after years of purification, cleansing, and transformation. You are burning in ashes like the phoenix, and Kundalini does that throughout the total process of the Kundalini journey. Once Kundalini awakens in you, you need to know that you are pregnant. Your whole system is pregnant. This human body that you feel is used as the womb of Kundalini to produce the new you.
The way a pregnant mother needs nutritious food, water, fresh air, fresh prana, oxygen, everything to create the child that is taking birth, that is taking shape, the mother has to take care of not only herself but the child also which is taking birth in her womb. She cannot be unconscious about her actions. She cannot just eat anything and everything that she used to eat. There are so many restrictions. There are so many rules to follow throughout the pregnancy period. Likewise, when Kundalini is doing the task of creating the new you, you need to follow different sadhana given by your guru.
Mother, Father, and the Cosmic Team
Kundalini is the Divine Mother who is giving birth to you. Then who is the father here? The father is universal consciousness. And what is the role of the father in this entire journey? The role of the father is to remain conscious. It is the quality of Shiva. It is the quality of the consciousness. It is the quality of the masculine energy who is the father of this new child. The Divine Mother is the feminine energy of the cosmos, of universal forces that is giving birth to you. Both Kundalini and consciousness together are giving birth to you.
The point of enlightenment is just the beginning of the process of giving birth to you. The point of enlightenment is the meeting of the sperm with the egg to form the zygote, to form the one who is going to take birth as a child. The real process of a child being created in the womb begins after enlightenment, when Kundalini Shakti meets consciousness at the crown chakra. When you feel the bliss, that is the point of cosmic orgasm. And after that point, the real process of transformation of you into a new being begins.
Before and After Enlightenment
Till the point of enlightenment, you are operating with the same patterns, conditioning, egoic identification with the personality; everything that you are performing in life till the point of enlightenment is of the same you, of the same ego image, the person who was operating. So do not think that enlightenment is end of everything. Once you are enlightened, the process is over. Enlightenment is just the beginning and origin of you into a new being. The real process begins after you are free. When you are spiritually free, when you are liberated, before that process Kundalini is doing everything to ascend. There is nothing in the name of new creation of a new being. She is completing the karmas. She is clearing the blockages in your energy channels and your gross, killing the demons in you, the negative forces in you, the negative energies in you, the vasanas, the tendencies and patterns with which you are running for millions of years, only and only to meet, to unite with divine Shiva, divine consciousness at the crown chakra and pierce through it.
When Kundalini is—she is an electrified energy. When she is ascending, her only purpose pre-enlightenment phase is to create ways so that the union can happen. The cosmic sexual intercourse happens. Her only purpose, her only goal is to unite with consciousness. Only when the union happens, the new baby is born. The beginning of the new baby happens at that cosmic orgasmic point. That is the point of enlightenment. And when you reach that point, you do not reach your point. You are dissolved. The ego is dissolved. Kundalini, the spirit, the soul, the energy that meets consciousness, and both of this, when united, they become powerful to do the next task of the creation of a new being.
Karma, Suffering, and the Rarity of Guidance
Before enlightenment, you need to suffer. You need to complete your karmas, all the karmas that you have done, all the wrongdoing that you have done in all of your births—that needs to be cleaned, that needs to be purified, that needs to be cleared. Until that time, if you find a guru who can guide you to complete your karmas, who can clean your karmas through powers, then you are a lucky one. But 99% of the time you do not get the guru. When you are completing your karmas, you have to suffer your own karmas. You have to bear the consequences of the wrongdoings that you have done in millions of births. And this is the last. But you have to face it. You cannot run away from your responsibility. And only when you are evolved from this phase, in the last stage of freedom, the guru may arrive based on your eligibility.
If you are eligible, when you are ready, the guru, the master arrives at the right time, and the final state of freedom happens through the grace of the guru, through the powers of the guru. Without the guru, you cannot be free permanently. You may have a flash of enlightenment, but after that your ego and the energy of Maya, the energy of the matrix, the energy of the illusion will bring you down to your original state of egoic identification. You cannot remain there permanently, but with the help of the guru, you can process your Kundalini, do the post-enlightenment sadhana, and stabilize in this stage. That is why the three stages are important.
The Three Stages of the Path
Pre-enlightenment sadhana till the point of self-realization. Once you are self-realized, then the post-enlightenment sadhana—that is self-stabilization. Once the post-enlightenment sadhana is done, then the third stage is to go beyond enlightenment. That is the stage of self-expression. Whatever you have become, whatever the new you you have become, you need to stabilize in that and then express from that state. If you are suffering, then you have to suffer to the extreme to complete it.
Post-Enlightenment Sadhana: Rewiring the System
So once you become enlightened, the next stage of post-enlightenment sadhana means that you are working on your neural pathways. You are working on your brain. You are working on your mental patterns to transform yourself into a new being. But how can you do it alone? It is not the work of you to give birth to you. Only and only the guru can help you to transform into a new being. Because the guru has the third-person perspective. Guru is out of you. Guru is not you. Guru is equivalent to the doctor who will work with the mother. Mother is Kundalini, father is consciousness, and guru is the doctor. The mother, father, and the doctor—these totally create a team, and this team of experts works on you to give birth to a new you.
How you are developing—or your old pathway is still running the show? Are you still in the mental patterns, beliefs, and conditioning of your old self? Or you are evolving as the phoenix, as the new you who is of a different quality, who is operating from a different space, who is changing very fast or slow—but you are constantly changing? You are constantly evolving. All these things are monitored by the guru along with your Kundalini, along with the consciousness.
You have to—the you that was old—you will come up. Ego comes from the back door to take birth again. Your light of consciousness works as the witnessing power in you, and with post-enlightenment sadhana, with the high quality of sadhana, you make sure that the ego is not coming. With the practices, with the breathwork, or with many things, the techniques that the guru teaches you, you will be able to see that your ego is not taking you to your old patterns or self, your egoic identification, your limited self.
The Phoenix Project and the 18-Month Window
With the techniques that I teach, I teach my students how to do the post-enlightenment sadhana completely till the stage they take new birth. That is why the Phoenix Project is. It is for post-enlightenment sadhana and to take the new birth as the phoenix. It takes 18 months for the brain and nervous system to rewire, to create new neural pathways. Your muscle memory needs to be changed, your new neuroplasticity needs to be changed, and all these are possible only by changing the programming that has been done to you till now.
It needs to be programmed and then again reprogrammed in a new way—how to function as a powerful and individual, with integrity, with authenticity, with truthfulness. Your total existence is transformed into a new person whose ways of living life is totally different from the one who was actually living life before.
Early Care for the New Being
You are a new person the way a child is born, and for the child the parents make all the preparation—new clothes, new environment—whether the child is having all the comforts. For the first 18 months or two years period, the child is under observation of the mother and father that everything that the child needs is making it available. This is the role of the parents—the tender touch, the comfort, the love, the gentleness with which the child is groomed. The child is nourished in the initial period.
So not only you take birth; you have to be groomed into a new person. Each moment will be so deadly. Each moment will be filled with so much of turmoil. You will be in dilemma—what to do—because the child is a new child, is not powerful. That is why parents are needed. For every species there is a period during which the mother and father take care of the child till the child becomes independent.
Integration Before Independence
Enlightenment doesn’t make you independent. Till the time your Kundalini Shakti and consciousness—Shiva—integrates in your total nervous system, till your brain is equipped enough to process this energy on a daily basis, you are not an integrated person. You are not an integrated whole. You cannot function independently in the world after enlightenment. You need to operate from a new dimension. You need to know the intelligence behind operating in this world in a new way only through Kundalini and consciousness integration, and that also with the help of the guru. Without the guru, you cannot do anything.
Without the doctor, you are not equipped enough to take care of the child. So many vaccinations are required, so many other medicines are required, so many care-kits are required for the child so that the child remains immune to the viruses, bacteria, and other pathogens that are available everywhere, and the child may be allergic to all this—viruses and bacteria which may affect the organs of the child. Similarly, you are allergic, and you are vulnerable to the negative energies in the surrounding—in the form of people around you, in the form of matrix, in the form of everything that is existing in the world.
Myths After Enlightenment
Who said that after enlightenment the bliss is constant? Go into the history of people who have become enlightened and how they have processed their energy—if they ever became someone, a great master, a great teacher later in their life, or a great healer after a certain point—you will understand the intensity of care, nourishment required for you, because your body is used as the vehicle for Kundalini to give birth to you. Your body is used as the womb through which you are taking birth.
All your neural pathways of the old self are wiped away, all your memories wiped away. You will not remember anything. You will have Alzheimer-like condition. You will forget everything. Your function doesn’t function after enlightenment. You cannot function like the old self. Everything is going away from you, and that is why this stage is crucial. If you cannot integrate during this period, you will never be able to integrate in this whole life.
The Cost of Missing Integration
I get cases of students who got enlightened 30–40 years ago, but since the guru was not there with them, they are still lost. They are still lost. They are neither of the matrix nor of the divine. They are doing nothing. Doing nothing after integration is a choice, but not being able to do anything is a curse. After enlightenment, if you cannot function as an integrated whole, then what is the use of that enlightenment?
Some of the students who could not integrate during that period, they asked for death of the body so that at least they don’t have to feel the suffering and the pain of remaining in this body. If you do not know, then let me tell you that after enlightenment, if your brain and nervous system does not function in an integrated way, then you feel paralyzed, you feel like you are in coma, and you feel like taking your life away. You don’t want to remain in this body because without integration, your body becomes a burden.
Guidelines During the Kundalini Pregnancy
And that is why this complete pregnancy period of Kundalini—taking care of yourself till the time you are integrated, till you are coming out powerfully from this womb—you need to follow so many guidelines of the guru. You need to remain away from the matrix because nobody in the matrix will understand your case. They will declare you as a psychopath, as a person with psychosis, and will admit you in the hospital—mental hospital. This total perspective is for the ones who have actually known what suffering is to remain in the matrix.
If you are still in the beginning phase of your Kundalini awakening journey, then you may not be knowing the intensity of problems you are going to face in the coming time. And that is why this awareness discourse is—don’t take Kundalini for granted. Don’t take Kundalini lightly. Kundalini is a total powerful process of the universe. You are chosen. Your body is chosen. Your existence is chosen to be the vehicle of Kundalini, and Kundalini will use all your prana, all your nutrition, all your fuel—everything that you supply to the body will be used with Kundalini as the fuel. It is the rocket which wants to shoot up and go into the space and go where she wants to go and bring so many powers in the later period because she wants to get expressed through you.
She wants to use your body to get expressed as the powerful you. It is not your choice. You did not ask for Kundalini in this birth, but definitely you have done the evolutionary journey in millions of births; in each birth some kind of sadhana you have done, and that is why your journey is complete, and that is why you are meant to be destined to be free in this world.
Irreversibility and the Arc of Evolution
So you cannot reverse this journey. Kundalini awakening is an irreversible journey from the sense of completion. You may die, your body may die. Kundalini will again continue this journey in the next birth in some other body, but it is not a reversible journey. Kundalini never comes and goes to the origin in the reverse direction. It only ascends, and it only does a linear function of going ahead in evolution. Kundalini started its journey from an amoeba, and millions of births you have taken in different forms to reach here in the human form. And in the human form also, you have taken many births, and this is the last birth from which the phoenix is taking birth. This understanding will free you from the level of suffering that you are experiencing right now.
Invest in the New Birth
If you understand this, then you will invest all your time, money, and energy to create yourself. You will invest in good food. You will invest in transformation. You will invest in not to suffer. You will invest in staying at a place which needs this total process completion. The way a mother is taken care of during the total process of pregnancy, you will take care of yourself. You will not deliberately expose yourself to negative energies, negative environment. You will be gentle with yourself. You will be loving yourself. You will cook your own food. You will eat healthy. You will sleep on time. And even if you are not getting sleep due to Kundalini, you will come to the guru to ask for some sadhana that will make your sleep possible.
You yourself are struggling with all the downloads and all the Kundalini process and energetic work going on in you—it is not required, because first of all, you know that you cannot do it alone. It is not a process to be done alone. A mother needs a father who will take care of her. Likewise, you need the consciousness of the guru, the divine powers of the guru to take care of you during this total process of pregnancy.
Formless and Form: Returning as an Integrated Whole
You may be men or women in this birth. It doesn’t matter. Ultimately, it is the dissolution of the form to become the formless. And again, by becoming the formless, you cannot operate in this life, so you have to come back to the form again in an integrated way, in a new way. And that is the new birth. The total process is a subject of study for you. If you are going through Kundalini awakening, first take the understanding behind it. Once you get the understanding behind it, it will be easier for you to take the steps which is required for you to get integrated. You will not struggle. You will stop struggling, and all the energy that will be stopped and freed from struggling will go into working on the right wing, will work for you and your brain, nervous system. You will work in the right direction given by the guru.
Stay Connected to Guidance
That is why I always suggest to my students to remain connected to me throughout the projects, because without that you will be lost. There will be no progress. In fact, there are chances that you go back to the matrix and do the wrong things again, and you are again equipped with all the lower energies because your aura is not thickened yet. A child is born, but the child’s aura is not thickened, is not strengthened yet to be sent to school. The child doesn’t know anything about this world.
You will come to this earth every day, all the time. Kundalini takes you away to a different universe at night. After enlightenment, all your neural pathways slowly dissolve. You do not even know how to function in life. You do not even know—after getting up—you need to go to the loo or drink water. You will be remaining standstill because your brain does not function. You have to be taught in a new way. The new rewiring has to be done—how to brush your teeth. Some of the neural pathways may remain with you, but most of the pathways will be gone. You will not know how to work, how to do your business, how to function in life, how to communicate.
People will be talking in front of you, and you will be silent, numb. You have lost your cognitive functions. But gradually, as you learn, then you will be able to perform. And this learning process, total learning process, requires 18 months’ time with the guru, and with me—not any other guru. I am not talking about other people who are working with you from their state. Your state is known by you because I have the highest clairvoyant powers to read your Kundalini, to move your Kundalini, to change everything that is going to happen. I know the process because I myself have gone through the process of becoming the phoenix. The guru is the phoenix, so only the phoenix can teach you how to become a phoenix. You have to burn yourself day and night.
Commitment to Completion
The pregnancy is real, and this pregnancy will lead to the creation of the new you. You cannot hide away. You cannot run away from this state. You have to complete this state. You have to complete this process. Kundalini awakening—pregnancy—this entire process is a deep book. You cannot understand it by superficial knowing about it. Only the knowledge about what Kundalini is will not help you. It is a real practical work that needs your commitment towards life, towards transformation. Kundalini has happened to you for a bigger purpose, and that bigger purpose is much more than what you know right now. So work towards your new birth by allowing yourself and investing your life towards this completion of pregnancy period. And then only you can emerge as the new you. All right, so have a great day and thank you.
