Spiritual awakening is painful—this is the truth many seekers encounter. But why? The root of the pain lies in resistance. And that resistance comes from the ego.
Understanding Ego: The First Barrier
To understand this pain, you must understand what ego is.
From the body’s perspective, ego is your identification with being a human being. You see yourself as this body, this matter, this gross physical form. You feel you are a member of the most powerful species on Earth—a human being with the highest quality of brain, evolved beyond all others. You take pride in this identification: as one who rules the planet, survives extreme weather, thrives in deserts and ice, dominates jungles and oceans with technology.
Humans are the only species that can survive in almost any condition—slums, palaces, mountaintops. This adaptability gives you the illusion that you are powerful, even immortal. You feel mighty in this identification with the body.
But spiritual awakening shatters that illusion.
It demolishes the ego’s identification with the body. And because this identification is so deeply rooted, the shattering is painful.
The Touch of Kundalini: Divine Shakti Awakens
Spiritual awakening is nothing but Kundalini awakening. And Kundalini is no ordinary energy. She is Divine, electrified Shakti—pure cosmic force.
When this energy awakens, it shows you that you are nothing in front of her immense power. The nervous system, being unprepared, receives shockwaves of energy. It cannot comprehend what is happening. The brain cannot decode the experience. Pain signals are triggered throughout your nervous system.
You may begin to experience mysterious symptoms—fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, irritable bowel syndrome, and countless other inexplicable conditions. The ego, with all its medical knowledge and diagnostic tools, fails. It cannot grasp what is happening, and so your suffering deepens.
Mental Resistance: The Mind Fights Back
The next layer of resistance arises in the mind.
Your beliefs, conditioning, desires, fears, unconscious patterns, karmic tendencies—all of these are stored in your subtle body, particularly in the memory and ego faculties. When Kundalini rises, it tries to burn these karmas and cleanse these blocks from your chakras and nadis.
But the ego resists. Every time Kundalini tries to ascend, the identification with suffering, fear, and limitation creates friction.
If you surrender completely—one hundred percent—to the process of Kundalini Shakti, the pain lessens. You may even move through it without suffering. But if you resist, the pain will multiply. The suffering will become unbearable. And this is what is destined unless surrender occurs.
The Ego’s Attachments: Roles, Masks, Identities
Your ego is not just the idea of “I am a body.” It also holds tightly to your roles.
You may see yourself as a father, mother, son, daughter, friend, boss, employee, artist, celebrity, dancer. Whatever role or identity you’ve lived through—if you’re attached to it—your ego will fight surrender. Because to the ego, surrender means losing. It sees surrender as failure, as death.
And yet, without this surrender, you cannot be free. That is why you suffer. You use every method you know to protect the ego, but nothing works. The pain continues to break you down, gradually dismantling the false self.
You may have money, relationships, health, success—but none of these can save the ego from Kundalini’s divine demolition. The more the ego resists, the deeper the pain.
The Spiritual Resistance: Karmic Burdens of Past Lives
And then, the final resistance—the spiritual layer.
Here lie the karmic blockages from your past lives. All the wrongdoings, unresolved actions, demonic influences, and spiritual debts are embedded within your chakras and energy channels. These are not just memories—they are living energies encoded in your causal body. They form the karmic script (prarabdha) with which you’ve taken this birth.
You have come into this life with unresolved liabilities. These past life karmas are dense, heavy energies that block Kundalini’s movement. They create resistance at the deepest level of your being.
That is why, before my students reach enlightenment, I personally guide them through past life regression—not through hypnosis, but through direct energy transmission. This transmission burns the karmic debris, clears the energy body of demonic vibrations, and prepares the soul for freedom.
The Final War at the Crown Chakra
At the crown chakra, the last battle unfolds. The darkest, densest demons—those of lust, anger, pride, fear, jealousy, shame, blame, depression, anxiety—stand in the way of Kundalini’s final union with Shiva, the universal consciousness.
These are not mere emotions. They are powerful, deeply lodged energetic entities—egoic demons that do not want to die. They resist merging. They resist transcendence. And if you do not know this war is happening, you will suffer. Many have suffered unknowingly, thinking they are “depressed” or “mentally ill,” when in truth, the final resistance was raging within them.
This is why I guide my students to surrender fully—to the Kundalini Shakti and to the Guru. When surrender happens, I can transmit the needed energetic support to guide them to Enlightenment without suffering. That is my dharma, my role as a Siddha Guru—to help you suffer the least, and rise the fastest.
Your Next Step
If you are going through this spiritual transformation, the first step is to connect. Take a spiritual consultation session with me, and we’ll determine the exact nature of your energetic resistance and where you are on the path.
Then, depending on your stage, you may be guided into the Freedom Project, or Phoenix Project—each one designed to help you process Kundalini energy with the least pain and maximum grace.
Yes, some pain may arise. But it will pass with the right guidance and a customized sadhana designed specifically for your energy.
So take the step now. Be free. Surrender. And let the divine process unfold through you.
