Background
I, Guru Sanju, speak here from a direct session in which I guided a man named Alex through one of the most difficult phases of spiritual awakening: the dismantling of identity, the release from a toxic relationship, the karmic understanding of fatherhood, and the integration of Kundalini with the brain and nervous system. This discourse is not a motivational speech. It is a living map of what happens when Kundalini begins tearing apart the false structure of life so that consciousness can emerge. In this case, the student had already taken a bold step by shifting away from an unhealthy environment, yet his mind, ego, guilt, self-criticism, and emotional pain were still active. I explain how evolution happens through surrender, instinctive movement, self-love, and allowing the unknown. I also reveal why Nepal, the Himalayas, and physical projects in high-energy spaces become essential for deeper transformation when ordinary life can no longer hold the awakened force within.
Beginning the Session
Hello. Hi. How are you?
Trying to surrender. Okay. Let me see how far I can make you surrender to it. All right. Let me diagnose you.
Yes. All right. Better than before. Your state is better than before. Now show me. What is your exact age now? Show me your right hand again and tell me your age.
Thirty-eight. All right. Okay. And show me your left hand. Okay. Relax.
Reading the State of the Soul
I have the reading powers to read the state of your soul, Kundalini, and your overall state. So you are in a better state than before. That means your state of being conscious is slightly tilted more toward consciousness and less toward the ego and mind. That is the slight one-degree change from the previous state. That is what “better” means.
This means there is possibility of bringing yourself more to the center. One degree, one degree, one degree — that change will happen every day the more you know what consciousness is.
Stop Self-Criticism
First of all, you have taken a very bold decision. So first, be with the positive aspects of your actions. Stop criticizing yourself. Stop judging yourself. Stop blaming yourself.
All the conditioning that comes from the lower self — blaming, guilt, criticizing yourself all the time — that is not required at all.
From the universal perspective, this was about to happen, and that is why it has happened. You just did what was about to happen. The ego was trying to resist it, but the ego failed miserably.
So start creating a separation from the egoic energy that wants to resist the flow of life and the flow of energy.
Your Evolutionary Journey
You are in your evolutionary journey. Kundalini has been progressing, and you have created many karmas. Karma means all the unconscious actions you do on the path create consequences.
One of the biggest karmas you created in this birth was to be with a partner who was not aligned with your life purpose. That was the result of previous birth tendencies. In some birth, perhaps, you had done something unconscious, and that is why this partner came into your life as an obstacle to your path.
The spiritual awakening had happened much before you met this partner, and coming together with this partner was one of the biggest mistakes of this life.
The Karma of Fatherhood
Then what happened? The next karma got created. That karma was giving birth to a child unconsciously. That was not the highest conscious decision.
Not a single conscious person gives birth to a child. You need to know that consciously nobody will give birth to a child who has gone through the highest suffering. The Guru has gone through the highest suffering in multiple births and in this birth. So the Guru has not given birth to any child or entered into such karma consciously, because the suffering that you face yourself in the journey of evolution makes you know how difficult this process is.
There is no guarantee that a child will live the best life on this Earth.
So consciously, no. Unconsciously, yes. Now since the unconscious action has already been done, you have to complete the transaction. So your relationship with your daughter is of that kind where you have to complete the after-effects of the karma.
Right now you are thirty-eight, and your daughter is three years old. Until she reaches ten, perhaps seven to eight years more, the transaction is still due.
Your Daughter Is Part of Your Evolution
In these seven to eight years, the purpose of your transaction with your daughter is your evolution. Your daughter is one of the reasons behind your evolution.
The process of your relationship with your daughter is going to be different if you stand on my side, on the side of consciousness, and begin taking things this way. Then you will know that a certain evolution is happening in you through raising her consciously.
If you have to bring up your child, then become the best father by teaching her consciousness. If you can raise a child in the best way by infusing consciousness into her, then that is the best gift a father can give a child, so that she becomes independent in life.
If you feel like crying, please cry.
Because I am shifting you from the hold you have been carrying due to the ignorance around your relationship with your daughter, and you have been suffering so much. So I am taking you into a different dimension.
Infuse Consciousness into Her Life
It does not have to happen immediately, but today is the first day of this wisdom, this intelligence, and the power of the path that I am giving to you.
So start seeing this relationship as a journey of your evolution. Bring her up as an independent individual — not as a girl who becomes like her mother, not as someone stuck in victimhood or narcissistic patterns.
If you infuse into her, from your consciousness, the higher qualities of love, gratitude, appreciation, and self-value, then she will grow into an independent individual who takes better decisions in life. She will not repeat the mistakes. She will not become a victim whom others can take advantage of. She will not remain dependent on other people.
So from now onward, if you want to spend time with your daughter, then think of her upbringing in terms of life skills. Teach her how to be independent.
Teach Response, Not Reaction
Start teaching her how she should function in life — by responding to things, not reacting to things. Events of childhood are important. Her innocence is important. But along with that, at this early toddler stage, whatever she learns now will become the foundation of her future.
Her future depends on the conscious life she will live.
And whatever is happening in you right now, let it happen. Because I am powerful, and every time your Kundalini meets me, she starts unblocking you. So you do not need to be formal.
I know this session is going to be powerful, and the next shift will happen in you.
Teach Her Self-Love and Healthy Selfishness
From how she eats food, how she behaves, how she studies — everything, slowly, slowly, slowly — how you will teach her depends on your own evolution. Only when you are giving importance to yourself can you teach her how to love herself.
She should be selfish enough to love herself, and not become like you, who gave his life to someone else’s preferences.
So teach her selfishness from now. Teach her that she should be the first priority of her life. In that process, she does not have to become mean. She simply has to give preference to herself.
This is what you are going to teach her, the same way I am teaching you. Giving preference to yourself does not mean you have to hate other people. It only means you love yourself so much that you have no time for hatred.
It is the conscious approach. When you are so much involved in your life, then even your expression as a father, as a partner, as a son — all these are just roles to play. Ultimately, it is the life energy flowing through you.
Beyond Roles, Only Energy Interacts
Whether you are cooking food, feeding her, taking care of her — in the entire process, it is not merely the role of the father. It is the expression of the energy through you as the father.
In any relationship, when you are interacting with your partner, it is not only the partner role. If you are too identified with the character, then yes, the character is playing the role of the partner. But when you begin feeling energy, you will know that it is actually frequencies interacting with frequencies, two vibrational fields meeting each other, and something is happening.
If the energy is not coherent, then you feel resistance, imbalance, and displeasure. But when it is in coherence, then you feel love, gratitude, and oneness.
Most probably, when you are with your daughter, since she is an innocent soul, you must be feeling extreme love toward her, unconditional love. She is not polluted yet, so she is radiating pure love. What you need to radiate is also pure love.
Karmic Love Across Lifetimes
On the surface, yes, it is father and daughter. But from the soul perspective, perhaps in some birth she was your mother, or you were her mother, or she was your daughter, or your son, or some other relationship. Across different births, some karmas have been carried forward.
You have to give to her more than she is giving to you in this birth.
Maybe in some birth she was your mother and you were the son, and you received so much from that mother that in this birth you must give back that same love, that same unconditional presence.
Got it?
By Changing the Space, I Changed the Energy
Only when you buy what I have lifted in you will this make complete sense. I have changed the space deliberately so that you can focus on yourself. Once you can focus on yourself, you will become a powerful person — a powerful man, who can take the decisions of his life.
Then you will be able to focus on your career, your expression, and life in general, whatever you want to do. From that powerful state, you will be able to give your daughter more than you were able to give while living in that same house.
This is a very bold decision. It will take time, but the future is good.
Become a Powerful Father
This means that from a powerful state, you will be able to bring up your daughter, and she will know that her father is a powerful person, not a weak one.
In the coming time, she will forget what happened at the age of three. But as she grows, her memory will become stronger, and what she remembers then will remain with her throughout life. So much between the ages of three and five is foundational.
If you grow into a powerful person, this means you are taking decisions from an integrated space. Then she will know that she is brought up by someone powerful. She will know: “If I have any problem in life, I can fall back on him. I can trust him. He is a powerful father, a good decision-maker, someone who has control of his life.”
All this will happen only when you, who are disintegrated at this moment, become integrated.
Surrender Means Allowing the Universe
And all this integration is going to happen when you actually allow the universe to do what it wants. This is what surrender is. That is where surrender comes.
This means you need to lie down and do nothing. Not only with your physical body — internally also. Your ego is holding you internally. Your freeze mode is what is happening all the time. That freeze takes you to the center.
So what you need to do at that time — breathing is one tool. You have to exhale out: ho, ho, ho, ho, ho.
Like this. If you blow out, you will see that a time comes when the freeze mode is gone. This is one of the ways.
Movement as a Tool of Surrender
The second way, if you want to surrender more, is movement. Move your body. Get out in nature and keep walking like a primitive man.
Primitive man means instinctive man. It means there is no blueprint in the prefrontal cortex, no logical mind saying, “I have to walk at this time in this way.” You have to be practical. If you have work at home or professional work, then at least three to five hours of the day should be pure wandering in nature, if that is possible for you.
Yes, yes.
The Pain in the Heart
This pain in the heart is coming because you are not able to love yourself unconditionally. I will explain what unconditional love is.
You are loving yourself like a child, like a man, like an organism, whatever way you define yourself. But when the judgmental mind comes, when the ego, gender beliefs, conditioning, whatever is inside comes to judge you and tells you that you are not enough — this is the point where you are no longer loving yourself unconditionally.
This is where condition enters. This is where judgment enters. The thought comes: “You are not enough.”
I am telling you as the Guru that you are doing wonders. You just need to stop. Self-criticism is killing you.
Take the Mind to Its Extreme
If it is practically possible for you, then suppose one weekend you are free. Completely devote one full twenty-four hours to doing nothing and see where this thought-cluster goes. Just be brave enough, bold enough, to finish it and see where it goes, where it goes, where it goes.
A time will come when this energy will get transmuted. Maybe you are not yet at the threshold point where it gets squeezed out fully, but that is exactly the process.
Take it to the extreme.
For example, suppose someone drinks alcohol and is not able to get out of that addiction. Then I may say: keep drinking till the point that you vomit and cannot take any more. Got it?
Similarly, your addiction is thought. It is mind-fuck. It is continuous, never-ending, relentless. So you have to go to the extreme of mind and see through it.
This is part of awakening.
Two Parallel Lives
You have a parallel life to follow. One part is the life in which you complete your karmas. That is one part of the spiritual journey. The next part is evolving as consciousness, where there is a constant fight between ego, mind, and Kundalini.
Kundalini wants to rise. Ego wants to suppress it back into the lower centers. Kundalini wants to rise. Ego suppresses because it has fear of death. Ego survives through continuity of its existence, but Kundalini wants you to become nothing.
You are actually nothing but clusters of energy.
As I see you, that is the truth. You almost should die. This is what Kundalini wants.
The Character Must End
The Alex who is father, partner, son, software engineer, handsome man, person with a certain height, a certain appearance, a certain bank account, certain friends, certain relationships — all of these are characters, traits, costumes.
It is like a character in a movie. That movie is going to end. The movie of the matrix is going to end, and a new movie is going to be created. A new life is going to be created. In that new life, in that new movie, the character has to shave off all that.
Imagine Tom Cruise or any actor who has played James Bond. He cannot remain James Bond forever. He has to dismantle that character and get into the skin of the new character in the new movie. Only then can he succeed in playing that role.
In the same way, the same Alex, the same father, the same partner, the same son, the same every-identity — all those characters in the background keep telling you who you are. But the reality is that you are nothing.
And when you realize that, that is true freedom.
Realization Comes Through Experience
Your realization will come only through experience, by really reaching there. This is the purpose of Kundalini. It will not happen automatically through thinking. So let the thinking mind go to the extreme.
Yes.
The Nepal Physical Project
I will shift your energy into a different kind of plan, which you can implement in the coming time if you are willing to change the way life is functioning.
Next month onward I will be in Nepal, and most of my students who are in the Freedom Project are doing physical projects in Nepal. The way I am telling you, students are also doing it the same way for ten to fifteen days, around April-May.
I will tell you how you can do it, and if you have any questions, you can ask me later also. So for ten to fifteen days you will plan your trip to Nepal, which is not a tourist trip or a random travel trip. It is to change your life. If you shift your life, then this becomes a life-changing event.
Why Nepal? Because of the Himalayas. And because the energy vortexes that I know are in Nepal.
Become Nobody in the Himalayas
During that stay of ten to fifteen days, or even thirty days if you decide on a life-shifting event, you will come there, stay there, and explore places as if you are nothing. Nobody knows you, and you also allow yourself to be nothing.
You will do local activities. For example, I may tell you to go and do farming activity with a farmer. You may stay for two to three days with a farmer and dismantle yourself as Alex.
This is what the roots, the Earth, are going to do. They are going to heal you.
I will suggest such activities which will work on you, and you will do them on your own. Similar to this, I will meet you physically. I will do my part of the work: consulting you, guiding you, showing you the path where required, when required.
My Contribution and Your Contribution
Based on your state, I will do things that will change your state. Also, if you go through this process, then whatever mental activity is required for you, I will ask you to do that and you will do it.
If you go through this process, then you will be free. That is my contribution in your life.
Your contribution to your life is to do what is required. No questioning and no doubt about my process.
I may ask you to go to a power portal and do a trek on your own. It may not be a long trek, but during that time, the point is to dismantle your physical body and dismantle the ego that thinks it is something.
Such activities could be done only in Nepal. That is why I have chosen Nepal. The infrastructure of the Earth there supports this evolution. Other countries are often more developed than required for this kind of dismantling and evolution to happen.
Kundalini Wants You to Become Nothing
Kundalini wants you to become nothing — just a human organism, no better than an ape or a monkey in raw instinctive function. The only problem is the prefrontal cortex. So the more you tire your physical body in high-pranic places like the Himalayas, in the national forests, the more Wisdom works.
Yes. Kundalini is already responding because I hit the right spot.
All these blockages will go away when you go beyond the normal. It will be your personal investment for your freedom. During that stay of ten or fifteen days, I may meet you three to five times based on what is needed. I am always dynamic. I read energies. I know what Kundalini wants.
That is why I am declaring this dynamic physical project. Whoever wants a shift in life can come for this project.
Masculine Energy and the Real Purpose
If you want, you can plan this in advance. If you want to ask me anything, I will guide you. But if I know I am not the right person to guide a certain aspect, I will direct you to do your own research, because that too will build your masculine energy.
This will make you grow as a masculine man, which is the purpose of Kundalini.
I am simply defining what Kundalini wants. Kundalini wants to meet the Shiva in you — consciousness in you. If you are stuck in victim energy, wounded masculine energy, wounded feminine energy, she wants to break free once and for all.
The Freedom Project was to make you free from the blockages you are carrying, and this is going ahead each day.
Kundalini Is Your Prime Girlfriend
This means that your matrix life will become less important, and this evolutionary life of Kundalini will become more prominent. She is your prime girlfriend, actually.
She wants all your attention so that she can do the task for which she activated in you. But you are delaying the process. You means the ego-conditioning is delaying it.
So she says: stop delaying. The time has come now. You need to give importance to me. Otherwise I will keep disturbing you.
Yes, because she is the feminine energy. You need to know the nature of Kundalini energy. She is feminine energy. She will create chaos, drama, disturbance, just to awaken Shiva in you. It is the nature of Kundalini.
I am in female form. Even my family behaves this way. My consciousness is the Shiva, and Kundalini means the Shakti. Such a thing keeps disturbing you all the time: do it, do it, do it, do it. That is the feminine characteristic. Until you do it.
Chop Wood, Carry Water
Do nothing. Eat. Chop wood. Carry water. Chop wood. Carry water. And if you chop wood and carry water, that means even actual wood-chopping can help you. But right now it is not helping you because there is nothing left to be done the old way. You have tried everything.
So go with the flow. If you are breathing well, your physical body will be well. Make sure your belly is moving. There are many techniques you can apply. Use any of them and see that you are breathing well.
Slowly, slowly, slowly, if you feel that yes, this planning is going to shift me from this state, then start doing it and see the changes in yourself. You just need to allow yourself for the new opening that may happen.
Do Not Sit in Victim Mode
There is nothing fixed. The universe is very dynamic. It does not give challenges; it gives adventure. So do not expect anything, but notice how you feel.
If you feel a certain opening when you think about going to Nepal for a few days, exposing yourself to the natural, powerful forces of nature, and something is shifting in you, then I want you to go through the process of exploration.
Allow yourself for the next step, but do not sit in victim mode. It will kill you.
You now have a purpose. When you have purpose, you have motivation and inspiration to work, to collect, to save, and to plan. See how your masculine energy shifts when you do all this.
Nothing is fixed, but at this stage of your life there is no generic advice to be given. Every week I will be meeting you for more sessions. I will guide you according to the energy, whatever it tells me.
Since in my presence your Kundalini moves, that is why I am still with you. Even if it is moving by some degrees, still it is moving. Suppose total transformation requires 360 degrees, and every session brings one degree, two degrees, five degrees — still it is movement. It is not stagnant.
After Some Sessions, Take a Break and Come
That is why this process is working. After three to four sessions, I will suggest: go, take a break from everything, come for the physical project, expose yourself to nature, to animals, to the unknown.
In that process, you may meet me physically, and many of my students get free when they meet me because I have the power to trigger the last movement of Kundalini. But I do not guarantee it in your case, because if there are deep blockages in you, then it may not happen immediately. I am not predicting anything.
I only want you to go with the unknown. Be with the unknown. Allow things to happen.
Nothing More to Force Right Now
But exposing yourself to masculine activities in your life — whatever we have listed — if you feel that yes, it is helping me, then bring more of that into your life.
But right now, no more aggressive action is required. You have already shifted the place. Your brain and nervous system need a certain kind of safety slowly. So just focus on living life. Do not push yourself extremely. You do not need to push anything.
In this context, when I told you “chop wood, carry water,” it means: do not do anything unnecessary. Just do the basic things. Be happy. That is it.
Closing Reflection on Alex’s Journey
So when you are in the spiritual awakening journey, you go through different karma-building and karma-clearing processes. In this case, the man who is my student shifted away from a toxic relationship by changing the place where he had been living with his partner for eight years.
There was no improvement in his life there. No growth was happening, especially while going through spiritual awakening. A few days after shifting, his Kundalini started progressing again, and he began feeling the changes happening in the direction of evolution.
The karmas with his daughter are still there. That is why he has to remain the provider and guide for his daughter for the next eight to ten years. But by staying apart from the toxic partner, he can focus on his life, improve his life, and begin loving himself unconditionally.
And of course, to go through the spiritual evolutionary journey, the sadhana required is to be in the Himalayas, to meet the Guru for the right reason, for the path.
Most of my students get free when they meet me, and that is why power moves. If you too are stagnant in life and you are receiving this discourse, then you can connect to my team to know about the Himalayan project in Nepal in the coming time. They will guide you further.
You can also take my personal consultation, where I can guide you by diagnosing your state. If you are eligible to do a physical project with me in Nepal, then I can guide you for the same. And for that you have to take a few consultations before that, so that I can make you prepared for the Himalayas.
All right. Have a great day. Bye-bye. Thank you.
