Background:
This discourse by Guru Sanju unfolds from a deeply transformative spiritual teaching on consciousness, witnessing, Kundalini, and the dissolution of ego-identification. At its heart, this teaching is about the shift from the surface self—the conditioned mind, memory, emotions, and roles—into the center of pure awareness. I explain that the brain is only a processor, while consciousness is the real perceiver, the real subject, the real driver of life. Through this discourse, I guide the seeker into understanding intuition, energetic perception, post-enlightenment sadhana, the role of Shiva-consciousness, and the long burning of the old self into a Phoenix-like rebirth. The teaching also moves into a direct inner practice of dropping thoughts, patterns, and identification to enter the state of nothingness. This is not only philosophy. It is a practical transmission for those who are ready to remain free, conscious, powerful, and deeply established in their real nature.
You Are the Subject, Not the Mind
You are consciousness at the center, and you perceive everything. The power of perceiving, the quality of perceiving, the quality of witnessing, is only with consciousness, which is the subject. Nothing else has the power to perceive. The brain is like a processor. It processes whatever consciousness wants it to do, but without consciousness, even the brain is not functional.
In your deep sleep state, there is still a sense of awareness that you are sleeping. So who is sleeping, and who is aware of the state of sleeping? When you say, “I want to sleep,” is this the ego that wants to sleep? Or is it pure consciousness that wants to sleep? Or is it only the body? These questions must not remain intellectual. They must become the doorway through which you return to the center.
You can express only from the state of consciousness what you truly feel. Everything that happens in your field of awareness is known because you are aware. You are aware because you are the perceiver of everything. All the information may be processed by the brain in the physical world, but before that, the energetic dimension happens much earlier than the brain perceives.
Energy Reaches Before the Mind Understands
Intuition comes, but intuition is not about what is happening only in the present. Intuition is some vibrational frequency reaching you from a distance, and that energy is perceived by you in the present as if it has already happened.
Look at any intuition that you feel. For example, the intuition comes that you are going to travel to a new place. You will feel as if you are already enjoying that state, even though you have never experienced it before. Suppose you are going to the Amazon jungle or to some distant land you have never visited in this birth. Still, if you are going to travel there in the near future, you may feel that frequency of energy as if it is happening right now, and the brain then perceives that. From there, you feel the actual sensation of going to that place.
This is why you need to understand: if you want to go beyond the mind, beyond the ego, and become established as pure consciousness, then your attitude should be to practice what you truly are at the center, all the time, in every activity.
Begin Your Day from the Center
The moment you get up in the morning, the first thing you should do is know yourself first. Start from the point of the subject. When you are connected to the subject, then you are rooted in the driver. Who is the subject? The subject is consciousness. The subject is the driver. The subject is the one who drives this vehicle called the body. If there is no driver, who is going to drive this vehicle?
So do not identify yourself with the name, with the role, with the personality, or with the character you play in the world. Do not begin the day as the same old person who was living in bondage before becoming free, before becoming enlightened. This is where seekers lose their ground. The deep-rooted patterns, tendencies, and subconscious habits remain strong, and they keep dragging the person back into the same old personality structure.
If after awakening you still start your day like the old self, then what is the difference? The real difference begins only when you stop taking the old self as your starting point.
Witnessing Dissolves the Old Patterns
The moment you start observing the patterns in the form of thoughts, vibrations, feelings, sensations, and emotions, the moment you truly see them, those vibrations begin to dissolve. Why does this happen? Because witnessing is not just a dry act of observation. Witnessing carries the energy of the center. The consciousness at the center has the quality of the sun.
When the rays of the sun fall on bacteria, they die. Likewise, the thoughts of the mind, the feelings of the ego, and the emotional and sensory disturbances are all vibrational frequencies. They are denser energies, lower frequencies, like inner viruses and bacteria. The energy of consciousness is of a higher quality. It is of the quality of the sun. When the heat and light of this consciousness fall on darker, denser, lower energies, those energies dissolve. They get transmuted into pure consciousness.
The second thing that happens is that when you start witnessing anything clearly, reclaiming of energy automatically happens. This reclaiming of energy itself is enlightenment.
Why Post-Enlightenment Sadhana Is Essential
This reclaiming can happen very fast in my presence. When I give Shakti, your Kundalini moves, and a shift happens. But what then? Maya is still there. Negative energies are still there. Old tendencies are still there. That is why post-enlightenment sadhana is required. You have to reclaim that energy again and again and again until this period of post-enlightenment sadhana is over and you are truly established in the body as consciousness. Then you become a power holder.
Later, when you become like a rock at the center as consciousness, whatever happens outside you does not move you away from yourself. Even if Maya comes, even if illusion comes, even if the tendencies and patterns arise in different forms in your surrounding, you do not give up this nature of your consciousness. You do not give up this center.
The center is Shiva. Centered consciousness is Shiva. Shiva is powerful. Shiva is the meditator.
Real Sadhana Is Meditation on Your Own Consciousness
If you are a true Shiva, if you want Shiva to be established in you, then sadhana is primary. But what sadhana? Not merely the kind of meditation that keeps the attention occupied outside or in methods alone. The deeper meditation is meditation on yourself, meditation on consciousness, meditation on who you are.
If you do this for years—one year, two years, three years, four years, five years—then after enlightenment there should not be a restless desire to run out into the world and do something merely for activity’s sake. Those who, after enlightenment, still want to do something from incompleteness fail because they are not established as consciousness. They come back to ego. Then they create a spiritual ego—of being free, being awakened, being enlightened—and from that state they start delivering mediocre results. They fail miserably.
Many have failed to become true masters. Only a few become true masters. If you want to become a true master, the journey begins now.
The Journey Truly Begins After Awakening
This is the beginning of the journey. In the first few months after enlightenment, you try to understand what consciousness is, what energy is, where you are. As Guru, I teach you the real essence of consciousness and Kundalini. Once that understanding has been given, a new journey begins.
This journey is the journey of becoming the Phoenix.
What does that mean? It means what you are going through is the burning of the ashes of the old self. Every time you burn, you find that some more parts are again emerging, only to be burnt again. This burning will continue until your brain and nervous system understand this energy completely.
As you burn the old self, new downloads happen. And the new downloads are the intelligence of the universe. Your level of consciousness rises. Your Kundalini shoots up. Your energy channels purify. But understand this clearly: Kundalini’s task of purifying the energy channels is lifelong. The Kundalini journey is never complete.
Kundalini Is a Lifetime Project
You need to understand that this journey is not a weekend process, not a short phase, not a decorative spiritual event. It is a lifetime project. Some work gets done, and because of that, personality-identification starts dropping. You begin to understand the essence of Kundalini. But even then, the process continues.
Why? Because this journey has not begun only in this life. For many seekers, the journey has already happened across previous lives. The accumulated sadhana of many births comes together to bring freedom in the final birth. So throughout life, such a person experiences being a seeker, being in the journey, being inwardly pulled toward liberation. Externally, karmas are burnt through living, through participating in life, through making mistakes, through correcting them. Internally, the journey toward freedom continues.
So understand this: the entire journey you have traveled in this birth is actually part of the Kundalini process. You are nobody. It is the evolution of spirit doing its work, making use of your body to become free.
The Body Is Not the Truth
Take away the outer covering. Take away the skin. Imagine yourself without the surface form. How do you appear as a human being then? Matter remains. The body dissolves into matter and energy. Nobody can truly identify themselves with the name, the face, the role, the social image. The skeleton remains. The body dissolves. Energy returns to energy.
When you deeply understand the futility of all this while you are still alive, then nobody can detach you from your consciousness. Your consciousness remains intact.
Even in the moment when the physical body appears to die, the body does not truly die in the deepest sense. The spirit leaves the physical body, and then the body decays. The spirit is Kundalini, the soul, the life-force. At that time also, consciousness remains the intelligence, the decision-maker. Consciousness is the one that has been doing everything.
Suffering Belongs to Identification
If you observe yourself and witness yourself all the time, then you remain detached, and there is no suffering. There is no pain in the way the ego experiences it. Suffering and pain are connected to the ego’s identification—with roles, with material possessions, with being a human personality, with everything in the material world.
When you keep watching the ego like guests in a hotel who come and go, you stop clinging. Guests are not here to stay. Every time, the guests change. Likewise, the shades of ego change every moment. The ego keeps taking different shapes, different identities, different formations.
Another analogy is clouds. Clouds keep changing form in the sky. Mind, ego, and memory are like that—constantly changing formations. But you are the sky. You are the universe. You are the vast field of energy in which everything happens. The planets, the stars, the movements of life—everything happens within this vast field of universal energy. In truth, there is no end to it. There is only the boundless field, the great vacuum.
Enter the Vacuum Within
Close your eyes and feel that vacuum. Be free.
Bring your attention to the center. You are nothing. First, focus your attention gently on the area of the third eye. Then slowly move inward. Do not strain. Do not force. Let the attention turn back from objects toward the perceiver.
Discard everything that comes. It may come in the form of thoughts. It may come in the form of images. It may come in the form of feelings. It may come in the form of laziness, desire, tendencies, or old patterns. Discard everything. Drop them. Let them go. Let the clouds move. Let the guests move. They are not here to stay. So let all of them go away. Let all of them dissolve.
You are not responsible for what the ego thinks. You are not responsible for how the mind has been formed. Whose mind is it? It is a culmination of garbage of millions of years, mixed with impressions, conditioning, and whatever information your brain and body have collected from the surrounding. All of it has become your mind, your memory, your ego, and it keeps playing like a tape recorder on its own, like a cassette running on its own.
You just need to realize the truth now.
Nothing to Achieve, Nothing to Remove
Witness your subject at the center, which is actually nothing. When you discard all of this energetically, you reach the state of pure consciousness, where you have always been. Then you establish yourself as that.
At this point, there is nothing to achieve and nothing to remove. No one can touch what you are. No one can see what you are in its fullness. No one can feel you as you truly are. But you, as the subject, can touch, feel, see, smell, and listen by making use of the brain. The brain then makes use of the five senses, and that is how life is perceived and experienced.
Yet even the experiencer dissolves. The experiencer dissolves and goes into the black hole where there is nothing. When nothing happens, that is the state of nothingness. That state of nothingness is the endpoint of the journey of Kundalini. From that point, no journey remains.
After that, Kundalini continues to cleanse your system daily so that it remains clean. Then cosmic downloads of energy happen in you. If you are lucky, eligible, and sincere in your sadhana, then at a certain point in life you may receive intuitive intelligence, certain powers, or other higher capacities. But only if you are eligible. The universe is not a fool. No meaningless download is given. Cosmic electricity is downloaded only into those who are responsible as power holders, those who promise through their being that no vāsanā, no old tendency, no illusion will ever drift them away from the purpose of being established as pure consciousness.
Once liberated, always liberated. Never to go back to the matrix. Never to be swallowed again by Maya. Never to be lost in the game of illusion.
What Remains Is Pure Consciousness
Whatever comes and goes, you remain established as consciousness. When you are highly conscious, you are established as Shiva. And only when you are established as Shiva are you truly powerful.
Freedom is power. Freedom is the real power. One who is not free is not powerful.
So all your sadhana, all your meditation, all your spiritual practices should move toward one thing: remaining free.
You should become lighter. You should become minimalist. You should not engage yourself in actions that are unconscious. Start living only conscious life. Start doing only those activities that raise your consciousness or strengthen your consciousness.
Silence Is Not Empty; It Is Full
Now enter the moment of silence. Keep your eyes closed. Let the voice of the Guru dissolve, and what remains is pure silence. Feel the energetic shift of nothingness, which is actually everything.
Then, slowly, open your eyes.
When a real shift happens, often the smile itself says many things. The state before such a shift and the state after it are not the same. What changes is not merely mood. A deeper change happens: the spectator becomes vast, and the objects become small.
The eyes of the perceiver become huge, and whatever is looked at becomes very tiny. That is the shift. As you continue this consciousness-practice in daily life, as you keep witnessing everything in every moment, this vastness keeps expanding. Then one day a deeper shift comes. Then you realize, “I am that, and that I am everything. I am this universe.” From there the state of abundance begins.
The Vastness Where Nothing Needs to Be Achieved
From the perspective of the ego, everything feels bigger than the ego, and the ego always thinks it must reach some state. But from the perspective of consciousness, nothing is to be achieved. Nothing is to be reached. Everything is already there.
It is like a vast ocean, and everything else is only drops of water within that ocean. In this shift, you become vast as the observer, aware of everything, while the objects become negligible, almost invisible. Then only a blank state remains. There is nothing there in the ordinary sense.
This blank state is power. This blank state is freedom. If you remain in this blank state twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week, three hundred and sixty-five days a year, for the rest of your life, then the journey is over. Nothing more needs to be done.
Whether from that state you choose to express something useful to others or choose not to do anything at all does not matter. The state is what matters. People forget this state and start doing again from ego. Doing has value only when you are integrated. If you are integrated as pure consciousness and energy, if your brain and nervous system are aligned with that state, then your actions have meaning. If you are not integrated, then doing anything again creates ego and pulls you back into the matrix.
Nothingness Is Fullness
Enjoy this state. That nothingness is actually everything. This is fullness. It is all-encompassing.
Look at it from the perspective of energy. Suppose you stand in an open field. At one point there is pure consciousness, which means nothing remains as separate. There is only the vast field of energy, like the open sky. No object remains separate; everything becomes oneness. That is the state of nothingness.
But when you return to ordinary earthly perception, you may feel that everything is in you, everything is you. Every object is formed from you—the green grass, the sky, the stars, the moon, the plants, human beings, animals, all of it. That is the state of fullness. So both are true. You are everywhere. You are everything. At the same time, you are nowhere and you are nothing. There is no point of localization for consciousness.
From White Light to the Black Hole of Pure Energy
As you meditate more and more on this state, a point will come that is like the black hole. Right now, you may experience the white hole—the field where matter can still be seen, where experience is still luminous. But a time comes when all matter dissolves into pure energy.
If you understand colors, seven colors mixed together form white light. So at one level, you are in white light. Spiritually awake means you are enlightened. But you have not yet gone to the farthest extent where even that light is transcended. A point comes when all light is deflected. What we call black is not because colors are mixed into black in the same way. Black appears when light is no longer reflected to perception. Where there is no light, there is darkness. When light is removed, there is black.
So even the state of enlightenment eventually dissolves. The state of the experiencer dissolves. It is like a dancer dancing. The dancer is present. The dance is present. The act is present. But then a time comes when everything dissolves. Neither the dancer remains nor the dance remains. Only energy remains, and that energy is of a different quality. Then you cannot even distinguish the dancer from the dance. Both are dissolved. What remains is pure energy.
Pure energy is black in this analogy, but really pure energy is nothing. That is the profundity of this state.
Beyond Time, Space, and Even Witnessing
In this state, time does not exist. Spatial awareness starts disappearing. Awareness of distance, sequence, and ordinary location drops away. This is the state of nothingness, and this is the highest state.
When you become established in this state, separation comes even from the act of witnessing. Right now, witnessing still appears as a separate act. But a deeper state comes where even the witness no longer remains as a separate center doing something. Everything becomes two-dimensional and then even that collapses into darkness. You may be looking at objects, but your attention is no longer going outward, so the brain does not form the image in the usual way.
You may be in a crowd full of people and objects, yet because your attention is one hundred percent established in the center, your brain does not form the usual image, and you do not truly see objects in the old way. This is the highest state. Everything happens, but the state is not lost. This steadiness comes through sadhana, through deep sadhana, through not forgetting yourself as pure consciousness.
Not forgetting yourself is power. This is respect toward power.
The Blessing of the Guru and the Discipline of the Seeker
With my grace and with my blessings, I give the highest blessing for your sadhana. Whether you do many things externally or not is secondary. What matters is that your sadhana expands. There should be a leap from one state to the next, then to the next, and then to the next.
This is why I look not merely for interested people, but for dedicated students. A dedicated student is rare to find. But even when grace comes, humility must remain. Never become proud because something rare is happening in you. Only humility and humbleness keep you grounded. There is still a lot to learn.
If you are entering deeper work, come with a blank slate. Know nothing. Unlearn everything you think you know. Then the real work can begin. Transformation becomes possible only when you come empty.
The Real Work Is to Become a Phoenix
I look forward not merely to comforting the seeker, but to making the seeker into a Phoenix. This is not decorative spirituality. This is real work. The transformation is into a being who is much more powerful, but the path is demanding.
A strong shift can happen in one session, but that shift is not ordinary. It is an energy-shift from Guru to the right student. From that state, whatever action is taken becomes brilliant because it arises from the right foundation.
So do not create unnecessary gaps in your deeper journey. When the inner call is there, step into the next phase without losing momentum. Let the fire continue. Let the Phoenix rise. Let consciousness become stable. Let the old self burn completely.
And if you are a real seeker, then take what is essential from this discourse: remain at the center, witness everything, drop identification, strengthen sadhana, stay humble, and never go back to the matrix after tasting freedom. Freedom is the real power. Consciousness is the real identity. Nothingness is not emptiness. Nothingness is everything.
